Life can be so hard at times...
Whenever you want something to go your way, it simply goes the other way. Whenever you want something in your life, it simply does not come at all. Whenever you want a particular somebody by your side, no matter how you cry and try, the seat next to you is still empty. After taking a break, looking back at your life and start thinking, you begin to whine and complain that you don't have this and you don't have that. Only then, you start to regret.
Whenever something had been going in your way all the time, something had been in you life since you were born and somebody had been there for you now and always..... you have never realised it, you neither cherished nor appreciated anything at all, you never looked up to heaven and say thank you. You did nothing but take things for granted.
And, that's you, reading this right now. Deep down in my heart, I hoped that I was different, I wished that those I loved weren't like me, I prayed that people I knew are not the same....
But, how different are you from me? How different am I from you? How different is she from him? We are wrong. No matter how different we look, sound or behave. We are the same.
Ungrateful. Blind. Unsatisfied. Always. Now and forever.
Just as we are the same like this. We are the same like that.
We humans, are emotional, too emotional actually. We love unconditionally. Once we are in love, it is simply so hard for us to get out of love. It's love, love, love.
A beautiful thing we humans, give out and want in return. Such a powerful and desirable thing that it can change us from being ungrateful, blind and unsatisfied. One in love will tell you that he or she has the best thing in life, is the happiest person alive and is willing to die to a smile.
That's love. I am feeling it right now as I type this. Can you feel it? Don't worry if you can't. It's somewhere around you. It will come to you. You will know it when it's here for, Love is Love.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Life, Goes On....
first of all, to those who are aware that of my victory just hours ago, please also be aware that due to certain unavoidable technical errors, i cannot represent M'sia to UK. this issue is of no particular party's fault but it is the natural thing that we, humans, living beings and emotional homo sapiens do, which is making a mistake. i am truly sorry if i had disappointed any of you all. besides, i am also sorry for the trouble i have caused for anyone. here below is my both my prepared and impromptu speech which i think i should post them up for those who missed them. hope you like them. :)
Prepared Speech- We can stop the spread of AIDS, Malaria and other diseases.
"I am a prostitute. I have been selling my body since I was 14, and I have AIDS. I am haunted with the guilt of infecting others with this deadly disease. But I have no choice! I have 3 children at home to feed. I am sorry for the mistakes I've made, but it is either I do this or they die."
A very good morning I bid to the Chairperson, fair and wise judges, L&G.
That was quoted from a 24 year old woman, Minu Das, one of the 2.8 million sex workers in Calcutta, India
What Minu Das said brings me to my topic here today, which is “WE CAN THE SPREAD STOP AIDS, MALARIA AND OTHER DISEASES”.
I wish to be the messenger of hope. I wish to stand here and tell you that there is still hope. I wish to spend a full 5 minutes on talking about the possibility that we can find a cure eradicate AIDS and Malaria. I want to be the first optimist to say all that and mean it, but I CAN'T!
We have to be honest and admit that there is NO CURE for AIDS or Malaria. I say this because AIDS is clearly incurable, we have been working so hard to find a cure in the past 30 years and we have not and we WILL NOT in anytime soon! Malaria is incurable because its main cause, poverty and the poor sanitation in the 3rd world, has not been solved. We cannot, we simply cannot talk about making things better until and unless we acknowledge that there is NO CURE for these diseases. Only then can we take effective steps to counter re-act these problems.
The first cure we want EDUCATION. L&G, the UN Millennium Development Goal states that we want to achieve universal primary education. Education is vital in at least slowing the spread of AIDS, Malaria and other diseases, even if we can't stop them entirely. People need to be aware that these diseases exist, how we could avoid contracting them, and how we should treat them if we do contract them. Focus must be directed towards the promotion of safe sex, usage of condoms, HIV screening for couples before marriage.
The 2nd cure we need is PREVENTION. L&G, I know that we are all here today to talk about stopping these deadly diseases, but we need to change our perception of what “stop” means. Let's face reality, there is no cure! The saying 'Prevention is better than cure' could not be any better. Since there is no cure for AIDS, we have to prevent the spread of it. This means we should focus on teaching the public to avoid promiscuity, free sex and drug addiction, where contaminated needles could carry HIV. As for malaria, we have to PREVENT the situation from worsening. How? By donating just $10, we can give a whole African family a mosquito net, to prevent the spread of Malaria via mosquito bites. We may not be able to solve these problems, but we can stop them from deteriorating. That proactive step alone can save millions of lives.
We, girl guides, can contribute in our own ways. We, can direct our efforts towards running effective sex education programmes. For instance, we can collaborate with Pn. Jamaliah Sulaiman, a HIV positive patient and also, a outreach worker of the PT Foundation who had successfully organised the recent "Never Give Up, Never Forget" campaign. And also, we can raise funds to financially support the poor and destitute. These little things can truly make a big difference.
L&G, we need to take action, and we need to take it now. We've got to stop TALKING about putting an end to AIDS and Malaria. Talk is cheap, and words mean little. Instead, should start DOING something. Let us all, girl guides, young women of the world do our part to save lives. We may still be students, but 'Together, we can change our world!'
I would like to end my speech by taking the words of the late Michael Jackson:
Heal the world,
Make it a better place,
For you, for me,
And the, entire human race.
Today, I AM GOING TO MAKE A CHANGE. The real question is, will you?
Thank you.
Impromptu Speech- Love
________
however, there are certain things that i need to add. a million thanks to:
the rest of my family members, for your love made me who i am.
keefe, for all your hard work made me a champion.
john, for helping me a great deal to make it through this.
sophia, for giving comments and pointers all the time.
pn tan lee yin, for listening to me and giving me constructive criticisms.
other friends, for simply being beside me when i need you and the "Good Luck!" wishes.
miss joyce ong(head of organising committee), for supporting me throughout this competition.
pandu puteri teachers, for sending me to this competition even though i am not eligible for it.
and the rest of the world.
I LOVE YOU! :D
Prepared Speech- We can stop the spread of AIDS, Malaria and other diseases.
"I am a prostitute. I have been selling my body since I was 14, and I have AIDS. I am haunted with the guilt of infecting others with this deadly disease. But I have no choice! I have 3 children at home to feed. I am sorry for the mistakes I've made, but it is either I do this or they die."
A very good morning I bid to the Chairperson, fair and wise judges, L&G.
That was quoted from a 24 year old woman, Minu Das, one of the 2.8 million sex workers in Calcutta, India
What Minu Das said brings me to my topic here today, which is “WE CAN THE SPREAD STOP AIDS, MALARIA AND OTHER DISEASES”.
I wish to be the messenger of hope. I wish to stand here and tell you that there is still hope. I wish to spend a full 5 minutes on talking about the possibility that we can find a cure eradicate AIDS and Malaria. I want to be the first optimist to say all that and mean it, but I CAN'T!
We have to be honest and admit that there is NO CURE for AIDS or Malaria. I say this because AIDS is clearly incurable, we have been working so hard to find a cure in the past 30 years and we have not and we WILL NOT in anytime soon! Malaria is incurable because its main cause, poverty and the poor sanitation in the 3rd world, has not been solved. We cannot, we simply cannot talk about making things better until and unless we acknowledge that there is NO CURE for these diseases. Only then can we take effective steps to counter re-act these problems.
The first cure we want EDUCATION. L&G, the UN Millennium Development Goal states that we want to achieve universal primary education. Education is vital in at least slowing the spread of AIDS, Malaria and other diseases, even if we can't stop them entirely. People need to be aware that these diseases exist, how we could avoid contracting them, and how we should treat them if we do contract them. Focus must be directed towards the promotion of safe sex, usage of condoms, HIV screening for couples before marriage.
The 2nd cure we need is PREVENTION. L&G, I know that we are all here today to talk about stopping these deadly diseases, but we need to change our perception of what “stop” means. Let's face reality, there is no cure! The saying 'Prevention is better than cure' could not be any better. Since there is no cure for AIDS, we have to prevent the spread of it. This means we should focus on teaching the public to avoid promiscuity, free sex and drug addiction, where contaminated needles could carry HIV. As for malaria, we have to PREVENT the situation from worsening. How? By donating just $10, we can give a whole African family a mosquito net, to prevent the spread of Malaria via mosquito bites. We may not be able to solve these problems, but we can stop them from deteriorating. That proactive step alone can save millions of lives.
We, girl guides, can contribute in our own ways. We, can direct our efforts towards running effective sex education programmes. For instance, we can collaborate with Pn. Jamaliah Sulaiman, a HIV positive patient and also, a outreach worker of the PT Foundation who had successfully organised the recent "Never Give Up, Never Forget" campaign. And also, we can raise funds to financially support the poor and destitute. These little things can truly make a big difference.
L&G, we need to take action, and we need to take it now. We've got to stop TALKING about putting an end to AIDS and Malaria. Talk is cheap, and words mean little. Instead, should start DOING something. Let us all, girl guides, young women of the world do our part to save lives. We may still be students, but 'Together, we can change our world!'
I would like to end my speech by taking the words of the late Michael Jackson:
Heal the world,
Make it a better place,
For you, for me,
And the, entire human race.
Today, I AM GOING TO MAKE A CHANGE. The real question is, will you?
Thank you.
Impromptu Speech- Love
Good morning once again. L&G, now, before I start on my speech, I must tell you that I am looking at the 3 greatest love of my life now. My first love, that is my mother who is sitting right there in her olive-coloured shirt. My second love, that is my friends sitting right there in those two rows. My third love is the world, that is you, each and every one of you in this room.
Now, why? Why do I love these people so much? Let me tell you, in every single labor room in the hospital, even when the pain is so great, even the pain is so great that my father’s endless support cannot nullify, my mother only had one wish. That is for me to be healthy. For me to be someone who can give something to the world out there. And, I thank you for that mum. I love you.
My second love is for my friends sitting right there. Poh Hua, Wei Chee, Sophia, Jia Yun, Kah Mun and Samantha. For all the time and other things you had sacrificed for me to sit here and support me. For all your endless support gave me confidence to stand here and speak to all of you. And I would like to take this opportunity to thank you all for that. I love you.
My third love is for you. My love for you is no different from the love of Mother Teresa. For her love and sacrifice for the people in Calcutta, India saved so many lives. Or the love of Nelson Mandela for his people. Even though he had been jailed for over 60 years, he still fought for equality for the blacks. And, I quote the Christian Bible “For God so loved the world, He gave His one and only son”.
________
however, there are certain things that i need to add. a million thanks to:
the rest of my family members, for your love made me who i am.
keefe, for all your hard work made me a champion.
john, for helping me a great deal to make it through this.
sophia, for giving comments and pointers all the time.
pn tan lee yin, for listening to me and giving me constructive criticisms.
other friends, for simply being beside me when i need you and the "Good Luck!" wishes.
miss joyce ong(head of organising committee), for supporting me throughout this competition.
pandu puteri teachers, for sending me to this competition even though i am not eligible for it.
and the rest of the world.
I LOVE YOU! :D
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Gratitude
Hi!
yeap...my blog have been quite dead.... but, here i am, blogging again! but, this will be short. all of a sudden, i feel sentimental and wanted to just tell everyone that i truly appreciate your presence in my life. you made a difference(a positive one) and i hoped that i did the same to you! :) special thanks to:
my family: mum, dad, big sis, sis n bro!
my friends: primary school friends, close friends, prefects, debaters, interacters and the list goes on...
and, last but not least, people whom i have neglected, left out or hurt throughout this 16 years. i am truly sorry for the mistakes i have made and please forgive me. to those who had been into my life, thanks once more! :P
no! i'm not posting this because i'm dying soon, migrating or whatever. i simple felt the need to be grateful...
yeap...my blog have been quite dead.... but, here i am, blogging again! but, this will be short. all of a sudden, i feel sentimental and wanted to just tell everyone that i truly appreciate your presence in my life. you made a difference(a positive one) and i hoped that i did the same to you! :) special thanks to:
my family: mum, dad, big sis, sis n bro!
my friends: primary school friends, close friends, prefects, debaters, interacters and the list goes on...
and, last but not least, people whom i have neglected, left out or hurt throughout this 16 years. i am truly sorry for the mistakes i have made and please forgive me. to those who had been into my life, thanks once more! :P
no! i'm not posting this because i'm dying soon, migrating or whatever. i simple felt the need to be grateful...
Sunday, June 14, 2009
SO MUCH JOY,SO MUCH FUN, SO SMILE!
"speak to the hand", wen jun says...
sam and i!
ken vyn with his cards...
khai!
ho poh poh!
trina!
wei chee!
shern and audrey with adrian at the back :P
li t'ng and chris!
group pics!
one big happy family!
friends forever!
we were seriously crazy yesterday night! we played hide and seek (yeah, i know what's in your mind now... i asked the same question: how old are we?) but, it was fun!
then, we played mafia! omg, we've got tricked so many times!
after that, we had a 'creaming' session! in other words, i was wiping cream onto other people's faces.. :P
at the end, I GOT DUNKED! actually, we started pushing everyone into the water, without any clothes to change.... :P wen jun went home early and missed all the fun! poor ken vyn was drying his clothes at the pool side. even funnier, adrian voluntarily jumped in to avoid being pushed in.
i hoped that khai's and jean's mum didn't scold them... :P
luckily sam went home early... p.s. her white shirt was soaked....
and tri went home with my old and childish towel...
poh, the van seat is still wet!
as for li t'ng, i have no idea how many times she jumped into the pool...
wei chee, you will get it soon (she didn't go into the water because she has perfomance today. so, she has tan all over her body. if she goes in, she seriously will contaminate the pool)
shern went in with her nice, classy clothes! but, she didn't mind...
to chris: i hope you had fun! (sry 'bout the phone)
and of course, the star of the night.....
AUDREY!
without her, we couldn't have the party.... thank you audrey!
i would also like to thank the following people, for without them, there won't be last night!
my mum, for the wonderful food,
my sisters, for all the help,
my sister's friends, for coming, the presents and also helping me dunking people!
audrey's family, for spending time with us and all the help for booking the place,
elena wong, who can't make it but still came by to drop the presents,
all my friends who came,
and also, friends who had the heart to message me with wishes even though they couldn't make it (keefe and elena ong)
my only regrets were:
so sorry about your handphone chris!
no other debaters came.... (shame on you! :P just kidding!)
and my primary school mates: van, suet, shook and soo... :(
anyway, we all had fun! that's the most important thing!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
A New Way, A New Life
i do not admire those with riches,
neither do i admire those with beauty,
nor, those with power,
not even those with fame.
but, i admire those with health,
i adore those with love,
i respect those with friends,
i envy those with happiness.
most of all, i admire you.
i do not admire bill gates who is rich,
neither britney spears who is beautiful,
nor, barrack obama who is powerful,
not even any famous celebrity.
but, you
you are healthy,
you are loved,
you have friends,
you have happiness.
i admire you,
who do you admire?
neither do i admire those with beauty,
nor, those with power,
not even those with fame.
but, i admire those with health,
i adore those with love,
i respect those with friends,
i envy those with happiness.
most of all, i admire you.
i do not admire bill gates who is rich,
neither britney spears who is beautiful,
nor, barrack obama who is powerful,
not even any famous celebrity.
but, you
you are healthy,
you are loved,
you have friends,
you have happiness.
i admire you,
who do you admire?
Thursday, April 16, 2009
*FLABBERGASTED*
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY
SHE IS AMAZING!!!
SUSAN BOLYE!!!!
MUST WATCH!!!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
What Will You Remember From High School?
quote "this is the thing that you will from high school. not your straight A's. not your 1st position in class. it's this." unquote
-pn. mag-
now, i truly understand the meaning of those words.
nothing will mean more that what i've got from this experience.
the knowledge
the skills
but the most important thing is, the bond
elena:
the bubbly, cheerful girls who makes me go *WHOA* all the time. i knew her since form 1 and we have been close ever since. but now, i can proudly say that our hearts connect. whenever i am down, her shoulder is always there for me to cry on, her arms are always there to support me and she, herself, will always be there to keep me together. i know that i have hurt her so many times in the same way... dear, you have my soul to repay that debt.
sophia:
the jovial, beautiful lady who makes my heart skips a beat every time i lay my eyes on her. (NO, I'M NOT BEING A LESBIAN! this is pure irritation for sophie :P ) i knew her since form 1 but we were in a blood feud in form 2. now, i can cheerfully say that we love each other more than we ever did in our lives. whenever my brain is jammed up, i don't have to say anything at all and she will clear up the clog instantaneously. i know that i have hurt her so badly once before.... dear, you my have my heart to repay that debt.
john:
the scary Einstein who turned us, NOOBS, into something else. now, we can proudly call ourselves, DEBATERS. i knew him personally 10 ten days before the first round of WIRA debate. now, i can truly say that i respect him. when we were barely anything, he made us into something. when we fall, he picked us up. when we failed, he succeeded. a coach, a friend, a great debater! i salute to you john!
keefe:
the cute, witty young man who sings the birds off the trees. i knew him since form 3 where he became my division head in the prefectorial board (how i wish to get back into Ponteng & Kelewatan) only now, i can truly say that i know Keefe Chan Jun Hwang, after so much 'ber-bonding' in KDU. when things aren't good, he gives you a pat on the shoulder. when things seem gloomy, he smiles. when things seem to fall apart, he holds them together. keefe, you are the best!
leannza:
the terrifyingly frank but sweet young woman who makes me think twice before saying something. (in a good way) i knew her since form 3 through choral speaking but i truly knew her only through debate. a wonderful superwoman who writes mind-blasting poems, stories and speeches. in the future, i am convinced that it will be books.
abhilaash:
the charming, sweet young boy who made me realise that enemies can be great friends. i knew him since form 1 but we thought that we will be lifelong enemies in form 2. it was through debate that now, we care for each other as teammates. i thank you abhi! for you were one of the few who held me together when i was about to fall apart in the kdu finals. go abhi!
marc:
the intelligent, kind guy who made me realise how it is to be a much better person. i knew him since form 2 but i have never liked him much. it was only through debate that i knew the real marc. and he is a LOVELY AND SWEET guy. he can be so caring and kind! i know that i have hurt him so many times in so many ways. i sorry marc!
SMK Damansara Jaya won 2nd in KDU Debate. this is thing that i will remember from high school.
now and forever.
-pn. mag-
now, i truly understand the meaning of those words.
nothing will mean more that what i've got from this experience.
the knowledge
the skills
but the most important thing is, the bond
elena:
the bubbly, cheerful girls who makes me go *WHOA* all the time. i knew her since form 1 and we have been close ever since. but now, i can proudly say that our hearts connect. whenever i am down, her shoulder is always there for me to cry on, her arms are always there to support me and she, herself, will always be there to keep me together. i know that i have hurt her so many times in the same way... dear, you have my soul to repay that debt.
sophia:
the jovial, beautiful lady who makes my heart skips a beat every time i lay my eyes on her. (NO, I'M NOT BEING A LESBIAN! this is pure irritation for sophie :P ) i knew her since form 1 but we were in a blood feud in form 2. now, i can cheerfully say that we love each other more than we ever did in our lives. whenever my brain is jammed up, i don't have to say anything at all and she will clear up the clog instantaneously. i know that i have hurt her so badly once before.... dear, you my have my heart to repay that debt.
john:
the scary Einstein who turned us, NOOBS, into something else. now, we can proudly call ourselves, DEBATERS. i knew him personally 10 ten days before the first round of WIRA debate. now, i can truly say that i respect him. when we were barely anything, he made us into something. when we fall, he picked us up. when we failed, he succeeded. a coach, a friend, a great debater! i salute to you john!
keefe:
the cute, witty young man who sings the birds off the trees. i knew him since form 3 where he became my division head in the prefectorial board (how i wish to get back into Ponteng & Kelewatan) only now, i can truly say that i know Keefe Chan Jun Hwang, after so much 'ber-bonding' in KDU. when things aren't good, he gives you a pat on the shoulder. when things seem gloomy, he smiles. when things seem to fall apart, he holds them together. keefe, you are the best!
leannza:
the terrifyingly frank but sweet young woman who makes me think twice before saying something. (in a good way) i knew her since form 3 through choral speaking but i truly knew her only through debate. a wonderful superwoman who writes mind-blasting poems, stories and speeches. in the future, i am convinced that it will be books.
abhilaash:
the charming, sweet young boy who made me realise that enemies can be great friends. i knew him since form 1 but we thought that we will be lifelong enemies in form 2. it was through debate that now, we care for each other as teammates. i thank you abhi! for you were one of the few who held me together when i was about to fall apart in the kdu finals. go abhi!
marc:
the intelligent, kind guy who made me realise how it is to be a much better person. i knew him since form 2 but i have never liked him much. it was only through debate that i knew the real marc. and he is a LOVELY AND SWEET guy. he can be so caring and kind! i know that i have hurt him so many times in so many ways. i sorry marc!
SMK Damansara Jaya won 2nd in KDU Debate. this is thing that i will remember from high school.
now and forever.
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