Tuesday, March 23, 2010

i feel failure

no, i am not coping and yes, i am starting to worry.
what am i doing??
i don't know.
why am i doing all these??
i don't know either.
when are all these going to stop??
.i. .d.o.n.'.t. .k.n.o.w.
so much to do, so much at stake
i need a miracle to pull through,
god please give me one...

Sunday, March 14, 2010

I Feel Contented :D

once again, DJ participated in the KDU C Q Teo Debate Challenge this year... :D
but this time is different, well the only difference isn't that we didn't win. but how the process went..
this time, there was no john, no keefe, just us... we were seriously all alone. other than andrew helping us by pointing out our flaws and ways to correct our mistakes, we practically set up our cases by ourselves mostly. of course, most of them sucked in the end. :P but, that's how we learn right?
despite DJ Team A ended their journey quarters while DJ B ended theirs in the semis ( we lost to DJ Team B in quarters btw), i felt that this was the sweetest victory we ever had. this is because we won knowledge, skills and friendship with our own effort. :)
this year's motions were much harder. and our clear lack in general knowledge was so obvious... :P well, at least now, i am finally proud to say that i know how inflation, fiscal policy, redistribution of wealth, Google.cn, israel-palestin conflict, NATO in Kabul and other things work. (yes, i didn't know all these before the competition. haha :P)
other than that, we definitely improved in terms of speaking and convincing. now, i finally learnt what adjudicators look out for in a debate and how do you sway a debate to your side. and guess what?? i think adjudicating can be AT TIMES more interesting than debating itself... :P
and without a single doubt, DJ debaters got even closer. and without deny, all the gossiping over the dinner table in sophie's house was fun... :P despite going against each other in the quarters, it brought us closer!!! and we met great people from other schools and the adjudicators were definitely really nice people and they ran the competition really well. they weren't at all hesitant to help us in every way they can. so, GOOD JOB GUYS!!! :D
i learnt so much!!!! :)
i learnt that anything and everything have a different side to it.
we shouldn't post judgement at all in any cases for we don't know what's best and what's not.
be humble because you are not the best and even if you are, what gives you the right to be arrogant?
be patient and diplomatic even if you opponent shouts "SIT DOWN MISS" at you because an eye for an eye makes the world go blind. if he's not courteous at you, should you be like him and be rude? don't scoop down to his level but be better than him because that's exactly what it takes to be a good debater, the ability to be patient and smart to outwit him. (i'm still working on that though :P)
there's a lot that we learnt this time. none of us regretted coming. but don't worry john, we will keep our promise! first attempt failed, but there's more to come! :D