So Close... Yet So Far

to john, sophia, elena, leannza and abhilaash:
endless thanks
deep down in my heart, i enjoyed the times we spent together
and, i will sorely miss, treasure and remember those times..
here is a sneak peak of what we talked about during discussions:

Abhi: guys, you know what... our team is really mixed... we have a malay(Sophia), an indian(Abhi himself), a chinese(leannza. he forgotten about elena because she was in CF camp)
Siew: 2 chinese(i corrected him)
Abhi: ok fine, 2 chinese and 1 don't-know-what (siew : me)
Siew: -.-' (speechless)

in conclusion,
i have a chinese name, but i look more like an indian
i have portugese blood, but i sound more like a malay
i have western features, but i act more like an asian
therefore, in the team, i am known as the
CHAPALANG (i think that is how you spell it :P)
bottomline, i don't want those times to end...
i don't want to the competition to end for us....
all we want to is just to move on... is that so hard?
well, miracle happens...
once in a while...
are the tears shed, hard work and sleepless nights enough to convince God to give us a miracle?
only heaven knows...

In The Name of WIRA

gah.... i just finished writing my speech. most probably, it will be in the my recycle bin later.... again... yes, i really think it will.... hmph, i wonder how many lines remain this time??? 5/7? or maybe less.... haiz
this is seriously torture!~
for others n me!
my mum is obviously not happy with all my time, energy and love being taken up by one single thing.
my family as a whole is not happy with me not around all the time and keep on asking for favours.
my friends are getting worried about keep and without fail, everyday someone will ask me "you ok?" and only god knows that for sure.....
my teachers are already giving us pressure too for homework and exam.
me myself is constantly scolding myself... for what, i'm not even sure at times... haha
bottom line, i'm torturing others and myself.....
for what?
i'm not so sure myself now....