Let It Go

have you been through the times where somebody or a voice in your head tells you to "Let it go! stop brooding over it! it will past! let it rest!" ?
have you been through the times where you or another voice in you head will reply "OK! I WILL!" ?
have you been through the times where you simply failed to keep the promise you made to yourself?
have you been through the times where you just can't forget, you just can't let it go and you just can't seem to stop thinking about it?
you know that it will never come to you, you know that you will never get what you want and you know that you missed the opportunity to get your only desire. worst of all, you know that you chased it away.
you always tell yourself "later", "ok, i'll do it after this" or "it's not time yet".
but to only realise that the world moved on without you already. and there you sat, waiting for time to turn back... but, not for you my dear, not for you...
you cry and try and shout! but to no avail, you timid voice drown in the hustling and bustling of the city.
i regret now, i really do! at one point of time, i really thought that i've got what i wanted. but to only realise that it was never in my grip, never close to me, never mine at all. but someone else's or so, i thought.
i don't know! i'm so confused!
i want you! but i know i won't get you! what am i to do?
let it go or wait, hoping that God have sympathy on my patience
but, till when? would it be a fruitless wait? i would never know until i try it.
my dear, keep things simple, let it go... the broken heart will heal with time...
i hope

~out of nothingness~