LOVE YOUR LIFE

The Countdown Begins

2011-08-22T22:56:00.008+08:00

it's really funny how the human brain works. you long for something so dearly and when it's here, it just doesn't seem to be as important anymore... is it because that "something" is now in your grasp, making it less significant? or is it because you will be losing something else for that "something"?

i'm leaving for Penang in 9 days. after waiting for so many months, i thought that i would be so excited to go! but looking at my half empty closet(though there are still LOADS of clothes! never really realised that i had SO MANY clothes...) and zipping up my overflowing luggage bag didn't seem to be as exciting as i thought that it would be. the pouring rain in the afternoon and listening to lady gaga didn't help either! i always tell everyone around me that i am JUST in Penang! a car trip takes less than 5 hours! but deep down, i know that i am indeed leaving. no matter where i'm going, i'm just not here...

moreover, it's even funnier how people that you have known for a short period of time seem to have such a great effect on your life. looking at a brighter side of things, this post is dedicated to all those who have impacted my life :) (not in the order of popularity but chronologically, according to the farewells that i already had or will soon to have :D )

1) HELP debaters

a special tribute to kailaish and kar jin, my IMU teammates who brought me to the semis! :)

as i quote kj, "its odd that i've only known all of you for a few months yet it feels much longer than that. and yet at the same time, time seems to pass so quickly. ARGH i suppose friendship is not proportional to time" (please pardon the dramatic ARGH :P) i can't agree more with his words. both IMU & KLOC had been great debating experiences! without them, i won't have made 2 incredible good friends. i'm missing the both of you so much already!!!

don't worry han rong! i'm not leaving you out! :P MDO was an equally fantastic experience. (though it would have been A LOT better with you staying awake more often :P) i shall miss your "small-boy" look! :D

to the rest of you guys, zean shiung, shaun, prashanth, dinesh & kenneth (extremely adorable seniors who brought tears to my eyes and stitches to my stomachs), adelyn & victoria (i love the bickering with abhi!) eunice & giselle (i love the picking on kailaish even more!) and definitely, jasmesh & ayzvara!!! you guys gave me awesome memories that i will never forget!

2) JACQ JACQ & CHEE CHEE! :D (my beautiful daughters)

i love the catching up session we had on sunday! i felt so comfortable pouring my heart out, telling you guys everything. mind you, no one else knows! :P AND WE DIDN'T TAKE A PICTURE!!! we need more catching up sessions like that!

moreover, i'm really grateful that we decided to work together at BG. i would never forget those great times when we had so much running, yelling FLAT TYRE! :D + free refill of ice lemon tea and all the free drinks from the bar! :P

3)Primary school mates!

vanessa, suet ying, shook wai, soo hui, audrey, khai zhin & kero :) will never forget that fact that our year only had 8 chinese girls!!! thank you for making primary school year memorable for me. all the pictures that we had together are in my photo album! i only have this one below online... :/

but i shall cherish my photo album dearly, reminiscing the times we had together while we were still so young.... :)

4)(i-don't-know-what-to-call-them????)

there's a von chong, thingo, khor huan, (MORE IMPORTANTLY) a ROGER FEDERER & a RAFAEL NADAL! (it's just sher lin and audrey actually). they aren't exactly termed my secondary school mates because i just met them in form4. but nonetheless, one thing i can be sure of is that, i won't forget them. despite skipping 75% of classes, these gals never deserted me. they stuck with me for 2 whole years, in and out, and i'm so eternally grateful for such wonderful friends that they have been. i will not forget the evil gossiping sessions in chemistry class(notebook!), endless laughing sessions in class and doing homework when we are not supposed to(oh no, that's sher lin only! :P)

5)DJD

my dear coaches, andrew, john & keefe, thank you for all the coaching!!! :D (and definitely, gossiping sessions!) my darling teammates, sophie, el, lean, abhi & marc. WIRA, C Q Teo, KDUDA, IIU & HELP will never ever disappear from my memory. the memories we shared together define who i am :) juniors! dan, tim, shu wen, ken, alynna :D you all make us so proud to debate alongside with you all! little juniors! claudia, manda, alycia, hazel, carmen, andrew, jeremy, jason, shin lin, zhi wei, syafinas, tze kwang :D you guys gave me such sweet memories in HELP, IIU, Kids BP that i will always keep dearly in my heart!

i shall keep the nostalgic moments for this weekend! :P

there are so many more people that i wish to talk about this post! but then, the list will be endless... nevertheless, endless thank you from the bottom of my heart to ALL that shaped ng siew sanz. you hold a place in her heart :) forever.

It's Me

2011-08-03T11:45:00.002+08:00

out of the blue, i started going through all the blog posts that i have here, in my blog. and i just realised how i have changed in so many ways, but one.

in year 2008, 90% of my blog posts were about the twilight saga. seriously, i cannot believe how in love i was with the book. most people at my age right now would criticise it, telling me how naive i was to like, or even love such exaggerated (and possibly boring) love stories. despite how unbelievable i am in respect to how in love i was with the books, i think i am still in love with them. maybe not as much, but i still remember vividly the lines from the book and probably, certain scenes from the movie or even images in my head that i have depicted myself. (LOL :P)

then in 2009, when i blogged the most, it was all about debate and badminton, how obsessed i was with the malaysian team winning and how involved i was in the debating scene. a few occasional post about the girl guides public speaking competition and bubba gump also came into the picture. but the bulk, undoubtedly, belonged to debate and badminton :D i was really into the both of them.

2010 came with more emotional posts. talking about the IJN visit, my memoirs and mostly, how i felt back then. blogging in 2011 is such as failure with only 2 posts from Jan-August. the way i have blogged changed so drastically. from the shortforms of "wut" to the proper "what', from exeggerated "haizzzzz" to less dramatic phrases (ok, may i still do that once in a while) and from being a self-centered little girl to a slightly less self-absorbed person(i hope i am!).

i really have changed a lot. from a girl who probably knew nothing, i changed into an authoritative and to a certain extend, a dogmatic person. or maybe i have been like this all along, just that i have not been showcasing this part of me. i think i was nice when i was young(i think) when i was not so demanding. now, i think i am quite mean, evil at times, hurting people and breaking hearts.

despite all this, one of thing have yet to change. me, being obsessive. when i am into something, believe me, i am really into it. it stays in my head and pops up every now and then with the slightest thing that can remind me of it. worst of all, my imagination can spiral out of control thinking about it. from twilight to badminton to debate and then to everything else, i have been so obsessive.

obsession is really unhealthy, mark my words form a first-hand experience. it drains you out, saps your energy as you find for every little avenue to get more information about something/someone or try to feel closer to that thing/person. it distracts you. proving this statement, i am supposed to be reading my IB textbooks or current events. but instead, i am blogging about this obsession of mine. because it's there in my head.

so, thank you if you have taken time to read this post. i hope it served as an relaxing element or not you most probably have wasted your precious time. but if you feel that you have more time to waste(not that i encourage it) do tell me a bit more about me. :)

if you had known me long enough, do you think that i have changed? am i a better person or worse-off? do you think obsession is good? on top of that, please give me some suggestions.

after writing this, i promised myself, to stop being so obsessed. on the other hand, i think it defines who i am. but of course, drugs define a drug addict. so should he/she continue with drugs when it is so damned clear that it is killing him/her? this is my resolution before i begin my term, stop being so obsessive! i would need to focus for my IB in penang. is obsession worth my scholarship which is most probably my future? i'm not convinced right now. unless my current obsession makes me feel happy for the rest of my life, which is clearly not the case right now, no, i shouldn't depend on it. well, this current obsession of mine isn't responding very positively, which adds on the the reason why i should stop it! however, as it is always the case, everything is easier said than done.

but till i get rid of it(in which i promise that i will try), obsession is me.

p.s. purple have always been my favourite colour and it still is. :) obsession...

Women = Scapegoats

2011-06-08T00:10:00.002+08:00

Got a Problem? Blame the Women...Gosh.... Tell me this is not male chauvinism...

It is only human nature to find scapegoats for every problem that pops up, be it someone involved or someone not involved. Need an example? Talking about the French Revolution, poor King Louis XVI was used as a scapegoat by the common people. The fact us, the French aristocracy was really corrupted, and pitiful Louis wasn’t strong enough against them. So, there he goes as a scapegoat, the reason of revolution and the reason of the downfall of the government. Further into the future, Jews were the scapegoats used by Hitler for various issues from diseases to political unrest. They weren’t so directly involved I think.

But, the problem I have right now at this moment (10.57pm, 7^th of June 2011) is not that humans find scapegoats for every problem (well, at least it is not the biggest problem for me now). Instead, it is WOMEN used as scapegoats. From the dawn of time till now (10.59am, 7^th June 2011), women are still used as pathetic excuses for the fault of anything under the sun.

Back then when science wasn’t flourishing, if you don’t get a smart/handsome/athletic baby BOY, BLAME THE WOMEN (note, this happened EVERYWHERE in the world). Ok, let’s move to the Middle East. When a female gets raped, blame the girl for not protecting herself! If a brother commits a crime in the family, send the sister to take the punishment! How about the Europe? If a baby dies during birth (most probably due to the lack of poor health/hygiene standards), burn the midwife as a witch! What happens if the husbands die shortly after marriage (due to diseases that have yet to have a cure during the medieval times)? Blame the women for bringing bad luck to the family! Now, let’s get back to the East, China. Why did King Fuchai lose his kingdom? It is because Xishi (one of the Four Chinese Beauties of ancient China) become his concubine! Why did Wu Sangui open the doors of the Great Wall at Shanhai Pass for the Manchu soldiers? It was because Chen Yuanyuan(Wu’s concubine) got caught by someone else. See the trend...? If there’s a screw-up, blame the nearest female you can...

It’s the 21^st century and yet human’s barbaric nature has yet to change. So much for gender equality and women’s rights... Quoted from guardian.co.uk, ‘A senior Iranian cleric says women who wear revealing clothing and behave promiscuously are to blame for earthquakes.’ Then, could the butterfly effect be the reason of the recent Japan earthquake & tsunami???? If Egypt and a host of Middle East countries are in turmoil, blame the first ladies! Be the reason ranging from corrupting the economy (yes, Suzanna Mubarak MAYBE involved in corruptions but it is still under investigations. Nonetheless, she didn’t make the policies...) to not stopping the killing of protesters (First Lady of Syria, Asma al Assad is in that position).

Getting back closer to home, the Obedient Wives Club (in my opinion) is a slap straight on the face, telling women that if you aren’t good enough in bed, you are the reason for your husband’s disloyalty. This is clearly a ~~too~~ simple minded way of thinking that there is only one reason for adultery. Moreover, it is a clear discrimination against women, the ones good in sex and the ones not. Hello.... this is a marriage we are talking about, not one night stand. If your boyfriend leaves you because he wants better sex, you can call him a jerk. If your husband cheats on you, you can SUE him. The law blatantly tells us that ADULTERY IS WRONG and guess who is going to get convicted? The HUSBAND and not the wife... There are many reasons for a failed marriage and saying that the women are not good enough in sex is simply unacceptable. Then can we cheat on our husbands if they cannot satisfy us in bed? Try that and someone will stress on this fact even more, women is the reason to failed marriages. So that’s number one, saying that women not being good enough in sex is the reason of failed marriages is BASELESS.

Number 2, are you saying that sex is the only thing to keep your husband at home? What more when we are told to (as quoted) “welcome them (the husbands) with sexy clothes and alluring smiles in the privacy of their homes”??? I honestly pity the children in the home in such scenarios. It is most likely a go-to-your-room-and-don’t-come-out-no-matter-what-you-hear night. The little children must be scared to death hearing the parents having panic attacks throughout the night. And yet, we wonder how our children get into pre-marital sex, teenage pregnancy and incest...

Lastly but definitely not the least, I am truly shocked to find such ideas (I’m not sure if these ideas came from females/males) against women. Those who eagerly fight for equality are now just as quickly saddened by those who wish to put women at the end of the equation, not on the other side. Perhaps it is a different view; maybe it is a different perspective, but it is definitely one that I do not want my friends and family members to believe in. For in my opinion, it is only an idea that will bring us back to once when baby girls are buried once they are born (though some are still thrown into the river in China/go unregistered and thus have no education or even the right to existence!), young girls are married off for a cow/goat and ladies stoned to death for being raped. This is not a future I want for females all around the world. So, what exactly can you do to stop this horrendous future from taking place? Please do appreciate every human (regardless man or woman) around you. If you can, go hug your mother/sister/girlfriend! :D After millennia of discrimination, female deserve something better.

*Note: this is not a hate article against testosterone driven males. Neither is it an article intended to demean anybody/organisation/belief. It is only for me to express MY OPINION. I apologise if any discomfort/anger is instigated (it is definitely not on purpose) and if any facts above are deemed questionable.

National Novice 2011

2011-04-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

Upon ~~demand~~ request from Andrew, here I am posting about National Novice 2011:D Since I’m the freest nowadays anyway... Honestly, none of us ever ever (at least I didn’t) thought winning this at all, what more when we are so rusty! Yes, National Novice was the first tournament after 8 months???

But before I begin, I must express my gratitude to Zean Shiung, Prasanth and Shaun for being willing to help us prepare before the tournament. Particularly Zean Shiung, the list of things to be researched on really helped!!! :D Last but not the least, our very dear and much appreciated, Keefe :D, a senior/trainer/coach/opponent that is the reason why we can be where we are today. WE ALL LOVE YOU SO MUCH KEEFE!!!!! J

Ok, let’s get to business. HELP University College was represented by 3 teams where HELP 1 comprised of Ian Loo Han Rong, Carmen Chua & Victoria Ngow, HELP 2 included Sophia, Abhilaash & I while HELP 3 consisted of Kailaish, Jasmesh & Shu Li. Our very professional adjudication team made up of Elena Ong, Leannza Chia, Adelyn Teoh & Ayzvara. :D Now, let’s see how HELP 2 rocked the floor!

Round 1: Education.

Up against Sri Ayesha on the motion THW teach talented students separately from their peers and we were opposition (at 10pm on a Friday night after an hour of prep time, nope it wasn’t fun). Timothy Andrew was the adjudicator. This one was definitely not our best, for it was messy and ranged from average to below average. I was dismissive at certain parts & failed to attack their mechanism properly. We barely scraped passed this one but alas, we did. J

Round 2: Democary

We, on side government, faced SMKDU 1 on the motion THW make compulsory voting. Tasneem judged this round! We were improving slightly but not enough. There was one thing that Tasneem pointed out and we totally never thought it! Voting to not vote. It could have made our case a whole lot stronger (but we did pull through :D ) Get Malaysians to be more involved in the politics and at the same time, not just simply voting for any tom, dick & harry. By then, we were quite frustrated by ourselves. Yes, stupid us....

Round 3: Geo-politics

Facing only secondary schools in the 2 rounds earlier, we felt a bit nervous being opposition, facing another university for this round, USM 1 on the motion THW invade North Korea. Adrian was the chair this time. Now the first thing I did was to attack their mechanism! YES I LEARNT! LOL... but yea, I spent a little too much time rebutting and didn’t analyse my argument on bad precedence properly :P nonetheless, we made it through J

Round 4: Women & Men

We got into ROOM 3 against PUTRA 1 being government on the motion THBT if a biological father is willing & able to raise the future child, he should have the right to prevent abortion. Darryl was the chair. We lost this one. We didn’t have a proper case even after the debate started. The major screw up I did was defining what is “able” in my PM speech. And PUTRA 1 questioned what sort of willing is this that we are proposing. But sophie pulled it back for me! She explained that we drew a parallel example to custody and however capable a father needs to be in order to win the custody, this is what he needs to be when preventing the abortion. Moreover, what other sorts of willing are there? Forced willing? We lacked analysis in how losing the foetus = to losing a family member and we were quite offensive in our cases against females (though there were soph n i on gov and all three guys on opp!) It was a 2-1 split on a close margin with the chair dissenting. We were a bit dejected :/

Round 5:So Malaysia Lah!

We opposed THW impose minimum wage in Malaysia against SDAR 2. It was our bubble round so it was PRETTY SCARY. It was do or die. For the first 20 minutes of out the prep time, we were quite blank and it was only the last 10 mins that we started forming a proper case. Groobie was the chair this round and it was a 2-1 split! It was a silent round so we only found out the next morning! And I pretty worn out that night to even care actually....

Octofinals: National Security

On the motion THW not prosecute child soldiers for the atrocities they committed during times of war, we were opposition against INTEC 2. This round made all of us pretty jumpy actually. Not only because they defined ‘atrocities’ as protecting family and country from enemy and thus, making the whole debate into a definition challenge, ALL 3 SPEAKERS kept on repeating & saying that we needed help simply because we come from HELP.... so yes, abhi retaliated in saying that INTEC= IN Total Extreme Confusion. But it was “a bit” potong because abhi didn’t say it properly! It took the crowd 2 mins to get the joke before they started to laugh. Although we pointed out the truism, we didn’t question enough links... but well, here come quarters!

Quarterfinals: Medical Ethics

We went up against PUTRA 1 again on the motion THW force feed aneroxics. But this time, we were opposition. We fought! We were determined to not let them win us for another round. Yes, a lot of competitiveness seeping in. I don’t remember much about this round actually. Probably because I was quite blur after so many rounds already...

Semifinals: Sexual Deviances (HELP 1 was in the other semis against SWAT!)

This round we were government and it was fun! Probably it’s because I learnt a lot of new (& sick) stuff. Up against TCSJ 1 on the (longest ever) motion THBT sex education classes in schools should include but not be limited to: sexual orientation, anal sex, mutual gratification & masturbation. Yeap, we talked about G-spot (something new that I learnt), orgasm (I knew that already) and a whole lot more. They came up saying that sex education will only teach young kids these things. So we pointed out that they very fact that all of us here knows about all these despite not having sex education shows that sex education may not be the source after all. One of the speakers quoted that he learnt all those from his parents. Super cool parents I must say...

Finals: THBT the state should compensate people who are wrongfully convicted of a crime against SWAT = KEEFE!

This was what we never ever expected.

1) Getting in to the finals

2) Facing the one who trained us, KEEFE!

3) Winning it.

The most ironic thing is that we still didn’t know who exactly will be in our team till the last minute. And yet, we won National Novice 2011. It felt like a dream holding all those trophies. Like what leannza said, it was a trophy feast! With 4 of us (Abhi, me, ian & soph) getting 3^rd, 6^th, 8^th & 10^th best speaker respectively + finals best speaker + each of our own champion trophies + the HUGE champion trophy that is supposed to have HELP’s name engraved into it, all of them seem quite non-existent till I saw them on my table the next morning. This victory was by far the “cleanest” one we ever had. Yes, we did have a few misdeeds back then when John & Andrew were with us :P

But the most important thing was that this victory will not be possible without John, Andrew or Keefe because they built the base for us to step on. They were the reason why we could have succeeded. Without them, most probably, we will still be struggling to understand what harms principle is. Thanks John, Andrew, Keefe. We owe you guys big time. And, this brings me to my question. WHEN ARE YOU GUYS COMING BACK??? Don’t you dare come back after Keefe fly off. Yes keefe, when will you be leaving for Aussie? :D

History Repeats

2010-08-08T00:17:00.002+08:00

today was suppose to be fun... yes it was... but there was just one tiny little part that reminded me something i didn't want to remember

i thought it already disappeared but i never knew, it was only buried... not even deep, anything small would trigger the memory...

and now it's back, i need to get it off but it's not working very well... i need to work harder and there's mighty minds tomorrow...

it's getting harder

Breath-taking

2010-06-13T15:37:00.003+08:00

i went to the market in my Interact uniform and short pants (to avoid dirtying my slacks) and.... HEELS. yes, white ones.... but that is definitely not the highlight of the day. neither was is arriving late at jun ning's house or spending about 15 minutes waiting for adrian who is late... again.

but it was entering the children ward.

Interact Club of SMKDJ visited IJN (Institusi Jantung Negara) or National Heart Institute last Friday, 11 June 2010. i can say this with a 100% certainty to anyone out there who thinks that their life is terrible like hell, "there are people living lives a million times worse than yours". in movies, dramas, series or even advertisements, we always see people visiting hospitals, crying in front of their loved ones, so much more drama... but i just realised that the most dramatic event that could happen in a hospital is not all the tears or wails or sobs, but simply SILENCE.

a silence so great that everything around you seems to just be numbed and emotionless.

we entered the first ward and the first child we met was called Zulhairi. when we entered, his mother was simply arranging his pillows, trying to make him feel more comfortable. we started talking to him. but he was just so silent. he only gave short replies or just one or two nods with his head. but he smiled for us when we took a picture. and that was all it took for me to feel a wave of emotions in my heart.

we visited quite a number of children. all of them were connected to multiple tubes to every possible place; arms, nose, mouth, neck... i have seen them in movies before but not in real life... and it was really heart-breaking to see kids who had barely enjoyed life to be confined to the bed with tubes all over them. most of them have fresh wounds in the middle of their chest. some of them still have bloodstains on their shirts. but all of them were very quiet. they barely spoke. and to hear them speak or smile was just all we wanted for that moment....

then we visited the infants ward. all of them were sleeping soundly. :) but with the same tubes all over them... one of them started coughing and within a moment later, he started vomiting already. the nurse explained that it was due to his condition which produces excessive mucus causing too much phlegm in his throat. he was only 2 months old...

which baby deserves a beginning like this? which child deserves a childhood like this? which mother deserves to see their own infant like this?

life can be so terrible for some in this world. sophia once asked me "why are we always on the bright side?" i don't know. i really don't know. i don't understand. for a moment or two, i wished that i was the one strapped to the bed instead of that baby boy. he is barely a year old. he haven't even taken his first step. and he is already fighting for his life in a hospital bed. why? why? why?

after calming myself down, i thought maybe these answers are meant to be found. no one can answer me except God. all that matters is to help them and to love those around us before it's too late. all that matters in now.

love your life.

It's My Life

2010-06-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

ok, i'm going to do what a normal teenager will do today... yes, i have been a lil abnormal these days... i agree :p i'm going to blog about my life! :D

alright, let's see how things went... i went for UKM Intervarsity Debate. it was TRUCKLOADS OF FUN!!! i've met so many new people and the girls from CBN!!! :D sweet young ones... haha
i saw danial (yes again) which i found out that I MET HIM WHEN I WAS IN FORM 1!!!!
yes, it's true! i was with abhi at that SUHAKAM camp and we saw danial!!! but danial only remembers him, not me... haiz... well, it was a lot of fun seeeing danial and abhi insulting each other in UKM! (indian labour....) abhi, i am seriously joking only... don't merajuk!

then i bonded even more with sophie, lean, keefe and andrew! although soph did spend most of her time at night talking on the phone... to whom i wonder?? :p i really miss you guys. although i'm in the same class as soph and lean, it's just not the same in class and in a debate session. and keefe! he's not in school anymore and it's so hard to see him these days... and andrew!!!! he's going back to US in august... haizzz, i missing them like crazy!!! ok moving on about UKM...

we also met people from other universities. it was seriously lots of fun!!!
n then, there came exams... which isn't very much like one actually.... well, it's hard to say that it is an exam when you know that if you just take a step next door or something, you can already see the paper that you will be taking a minute later. yes, it is like this. haizzz

and now i'm here, i have a physics report to hand in tomorrow but i seriously have no mood to do it. and i was just talking to my accounts teacher about students being complacent!!! omg, kids like me these days... ok, that reminds me that i have about 10 account questions...?
life is so great right??

I AM GOING TO ENJOY MY HOLS!!! i will "de-stress" myself in order to....
prepare for more stress.... S.P.M. yeap it's just a couple of months away.... but there's trials before it first, which should be worse than SPM itself. and there comes college. time passes so fast. a minute ago i still felt like i was in Form 1 going for the SUHAKAM camp.... things really can be so unpredictable in this small small world.... but i have learned something new these days,
things will fly with or without you knowing, liking or accepting.
just live life and keep that smile up at all times. :) right wern lin??

i feel..... nothing

2010-04-30T21:33:00.002+08:00

without realising it, the heading of my last 2 post started with "i feel...."
keeping up the tradition, let this also start with "i feel..."
but this time, i feel.... nothing
nothing at all....
it happened before last year, but it was because of too many heartaches
that i came to a point that i didn't want to feel anymore....
soon, i really didn't feel anything anymore without wanting to not feel
that time, i feel slightly worried in the head because i thought it would be bad...
and yeap, my sis told me that it was bad because i was seriously being (unemotional)
but something, someone, somehow, made me feel again last year end...
but now, it happened again, just that this time, i feel even emptier
now, i think that i came to a point that i seriously don't want to feel ever again
because certain things are really too painful to take
i am just a 17 year old girl, i don't want to feel so much
i need to get out of this, but i don't think i can anymore
not alone

i feel failure

2010-03-23T21:29:00.002+08:00

no, i am not coping and yes, i am starting to worry.
what am i doing??
i don't know.
why am i doing all these??
i don't know either.
when are all these going to stop??
.i. .d.o.n.'.t. .k.n.o.w.
so much to do, so much at stake
i need a miracle to pull through,
god please give me one...

I Feel Contented :D

2010-03-14T21:03:00.003+08:00

once again, DJ participated in the KDU C Q Teo Debate Challenge this year... :D
but this time is different, well the only difference isn't that we didn't win. but how the process went..
this time, there was no john, no keefe, just us... we were seriously all alone. other than andrew helping us by pointing out our flaws and ways to correct our mistakes, we practically set up our cases by ourselves mostly. of course, most of them sucked in the end. :P but, that's how we learn right?
despite DJ Team A ended their journey quarters while DJ B ended theirs in the semis ( we lost to DJ Team B in quarters btw), i felt that this was the sweetest victory we ever had. this is because we won knowledge, skills and friendship with our own effort. :)
this year's motions were much harder. and our clear lack in general knowledge was so obvious... :P well, at least now, i am finally proud to say that i know how inflation, fiscal policy, redistribution of wealth, Google.cn, israel-palestin conflict, NATO in Kabul and other things work. (yes, i didn't know all these before the competition. haha :P)
other than that, we definitely improved in terms of speaking and convincing. now, i finally learnt what adjudicators look out for in a debate and how do you sway a debate to your side. and guess what?? i think adjudicating can be AT TIMES more interesting than debating itself... :P
and without a single doubt, DJ debaters got even closer. and without deny, all the gossiping over the dinner table in sophie's house was fun... :P despite going against each other in the quarters, it brought us closer!!! and we met great people from other schools and the adjudicators were definitely really nice people and they ran the competition really well. they weren't at all hesitant to help us in every way they can. so, GOOD JOB GUYS!!! :D
i learnt so much!!!! :)
i learnt that anything and everything have a different side to it.
we shouldn't post judgement at all in any cases for we don't know what's best and what's not.
be humble because you are not the best and even if you are, what gives you the right to be arrogant?
be patient and diplomatic even if you opponent shouts "SIT DOWN MISS" at you because an eye for an eye makes the world go blind. if he's not courteous at you, should you be like him and be rude? don't scoop down to his level but be better than him because that's exactly what it takes to be a good debater, the ability to be patient and smart to outwit him. (i'm still working on that though :P)
there's a lot that we learnt this time. none of us regretted coming. but don't worry john, we will keep our promise! first attempt failed, but there's more to come! :D

Memoirs Of An Overworked Student

2010-02-08T21:49:00.006+08:00

ok, i admit that my blog had been quite dead after being told my two different person:
1) jason
2) ericA ( my son... :P)
anyway, i have nothing much to update about actually. so, i guess i would just write about my life (which is kinda boring...) anyway, here it is.
it would not be right to say that life had been great. this is because those who see me in school would instantly know that it is a lie. those who work with me would know that it is a greater lie. and me myself would know that lying is a sin.
yes, i believe that i am overworked. but so is so many other people. for etc. my boss.... (yes, you know who you are and you know that you are overworked!!! like i have always told you "STAY CALM!!!")
i do look like a zombie in school but others are not much better. i find that some people actually looked worse than me... but, what to do??? lives of some Form 5 Djians can be quite hard... (yeah, i hear people agreeing with me, right jacq?? :P)
but, amidst of all these rush and work, i realise something... that A LOT OF people care for each other and honestly, thanks so much for it. it means lots!!! like seriously, people whom i never expected to ask me said "Are you ok, siew? you look so tired..."
well, yes i am. but i am hanging on. because i know that everything in the end will be worth it.
i believe that the school discipline will improve after so much hardwork done by the prefectorial board (GOOD JOB GUYS FOR THIS MORNING!!! :p)
i believe that DJ debaters will strive higher and finally manage to clinch a title this year.
i believe that Interact this year will be more successful and more projects to help others can be accomplished.
i believe that girl guides will revive and one day, there will be a Queen Guides from SMKDJ.
i believe that Hebat will win more trophies this year.
i believe that 5 Belian will be the FUNNEST, BEST AND MOST INTERESTING CLASS in Form 5!!! (omg... really?? *smacks myself* YES!!! )
yes, i believe. that's why i don't mind all the work and i keep hanging on. i believe. do you? to those who believe in me, please believe with me. and with this believe, we can make a change and make things better. honestly, when i look back, i see that me effort really did give me back something. you won't regret doing something meaningful. i won't.
so yea, i guess this is what i want to update. well, before that, there's something i would really like to share with you guys (Eric, i hope it's ok and you don't mind??? :P)

so true right??? yea, i know. cause it's from Eric the *word-that-replaces-awesome-which-i don't-know-what* haha... :P (i hope this brighten your day... :D) but don't practice violence kayzzz??? as someone once told me but he also practice violence one.... :P
keep believing. i believe in you.

My Endless Gratitude

2010-01-03T18:33:00.002+08:00

to all Gumpers of Bubba Gump Shrimp Co. at Curve,
THANK YOU!!!
although i didn't have any holidays last year end, even though i returned home dead tired every night, even if i did lost some money and a few strands of hair due to UNREASONABLE guests...
I LOVE MY WORK!!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
I LOVE BUBBA GUMP!!!
:D
these are the great people that i will always remember in my heart!!!
Mr. Naresh
Mr. Ahmadi
Ronnie Joo!!! :D
DK!!! (once again, bukan DRIFT King)
ericA (my son/daughter at times :P!!! i'm not joking... this 20 something year old guy calls me mum...)
shasha the AWESOME!!!
and lots and lots and lots of other gumpers,
balan, yeakub, man, ahmed, zoya, harvin, gokul and the list simply goes on and on!!!
you guys made everything worth it. and for that, THANK YOU!!! :D i miss you guys so much already... but, we will see each other soon!
may God bless Bubba Gump forever! :)

I Am A GUMPER!!!

2009-12-03T23:19:00.003+08:00

this is the company i am working in...
BUBBA GUMP!!! have you watched Forrest Gump before??? WATCH!!! it's a superb movie!!!
first day there, we spent 3 hours watching the movie!!!

i have worked 7 days there already as a server and guess what???
it's so tiring....
but superbly awesome at the very same time!!!
i have fun working there with my jacq jacq and chee chee :P and not to mention, mouth-watering food which i have yet to taste because the price is simply sky-high for me [a working student]...
there are also great people there that i have met such as
general manager: mr. naresh
other managers: mr. ahmadi, mr. kamal, mr. ronnie joo [ronnie sir, you owe us a meal!!! :P], mr. dk [not drift king!!! but daniel kang] and also other managers from the kitchen whom i am not very familiar with as i am not under them [SORRY!!! :( ] but they are really nice and whenever i need something from the kitchen, they will get it for me!!!
my seniors: eric, shasha, siera, shaz, yeakub, faizan, mark, leah, harvin, mehboob, farhan, shohid, mehwish, divya and also lots more whom i don't really know [SORRY AGAIN!!! :( ] you guys really taught me lots of things and endless thanks for that!!!
i don't have pictures of you guys here yet but i'll soon!!! :D [i hope.... :P]
the atmosphere, is also breath-taking!!!
i have fun and that's the most important thing! so what about working from 12-10 everyday??? it's nothing compared to the fun i get everyday!!!
well, until i start losing money i guess... omg, what the hell am i saying??? touch wood!!! [touching wood]
well, here's my workplace:

may Bubba Gump of Curve blossom more and more forever!!! :) come, come!!! visit us!!! and support us, by paying a higher bill and leaving more tips kayzzz ??? :P just kidding!!!

Perkhemahan Kenaikan Pangkat

2009-11-23T17:54:00.003+08:00

from 20-23 nov 2009, i went to a camp in Sekolah Agama Menengah Rawang (SAMER) with my chee chee (wei chee), a bell (abel, his friends called him that ok, not me...) and sab(sabrina)!!!! :P

it was really fun in a way but in another way, not so fun as i quote miss loh wei chee "vomit blood wei". :P

well, i've met really great, sporting people who talked to me openly with no reservation. there were also really cute and nice girls from both my unit (pandu puteri) and my district (petaling utama)

our motto/roll call was "utama, you're so good! you're so good! you're the best! oh utama! oh oh utama! GO UTAMA!!!"

there were also really funny and hilarous guys from my district who never make us stop laughing.

overall, i think i really like it. i learned a lot of things through this camp. things that i can find no where else. thanks a million to the organisers and facilitators!!! :D thank you to the new friends i met.

however, i must apologize because i can't remember all your names!!! and also, maaf zahir dan batin jika tersinggung hati mana-mana sahabat...

may you all have great days ahead of you!!! :D meet you guys online and in some other camps! :)

Let It Go

2009-11-16T23:27:00.003+08:00

have you been through the times where somebody or a voice in your head tells you to "Let it go! stop brooding over it! it will past! let it rest!" ?
have you been through the times where you or another voice in you head will reply "OK! I WILL!" ?
have you been through the times where you simply failed to keep the promise you made to yourself?
have you been through the times where you just can't forget, you just can't let it go and you just can't seem to stop thinking about it?
you know that it will never come to you, you know that you will never get what you want and you know that you missed the opportunity to get your only desire. worst of all, you know that you chased it away.
you always tell yourself "later", "ok, i'll do it after this" or "it's not time yet".
but to only realise that the world moved on without you already. and there you sat, waiting for time to turn back... but, not for you my dear, not for you...
you cry and try and shout! but to no avail, you timid voice drown in the hustling and bustling of the city.
i regret now, i really do! at one point of time, i really thought that i've got what i wanted. but to only realise that it was never in my grip, never close to me, never mine at all. but someone else's or so, i thought.
i don't know! i'm so confused!
i want you! but i know i won't get you! what am i to do?
let it go or wait, hoping that God have sympathy on my patience
but, till when? would it be a fruitless wait? i would never know until i try it.
my dear, keep things simple, let it go... the broken heart will heal with time...
i hope

~out of nothingness~

FIRE

2009-11-15T14:47:00.006+08:00

FIRE

I continued staring at the crackling fire for over a minute. The flames danced around the black charcoals. For a moment of two, I thought I saw the flames resembling a faun. With tiny legs and a pair of curved horns, he danced around merrily with a smile on his face. Then, I saw a fire fairy. Her wings gleamed in golden flame. Her skin was vibrant and yet tender at the same time. I was mesmerized. The wind howled even louder than before now, slamming the windows against the panes. I rushed towards the windows to latch it. The snow outside had fallen as least 2 feet thick. I rushed back to the fireplace to get some warmth, warmth of a killer. I feel tears building in my eyes. My thoughts drifted to him, his smile, his touch, his care and most importantly, his warmth. A type of warmth nothing else can replace. Not even the crackling fire before me. A warmth filled wit joy, security and love, his warmth.

The scene filled my head again. I turned my head and saw nobody in sight. Only the big oak tree which is now covered in snow stood before me. An empty swing rocked back and forth, hanging on its branch. I turned my head again. The vacant house stood before me. There were no lights and the doors were still latched. I turned my head all around but I didn’t see him at all. Only the newly built snowman kept me accompanied. “Where are you?” I whispered to myself. “Where are you?” I yelled out loud. There were only echoes but no reply. Fear started creeping in. “Come out! I don’t want to play anymore!” I screamed again. Only a breeze came in reply. It sent a chill up my spine. The thick jacket and gloves seemed to have vanished. I felt so cold of all of a sudden. No warmth at all, only coldness and fear in the gust of wind that came.

“Got you!” he yelled. Something knocked me down and we rolled onto the snow-covered ground. His blue eyes met my green ones. Just the sparkle of his eyes filled my heart with warmth. His smile gave me joy. His touch gave me security. His presence filled my soul with fire. I could smell his favourite cologne. It’s lavender. It is a bit girlish but he knows that I love lavender. That’s why it became his favourite too. His blonder hair stuck out of the cap boyishly. He was so handsome. His angular features looked a lot like mine. Probably, I didn’t inherit everything from my mother. Maybe, I only inherited her green eyes and dark lustrous hair but his features. “I hate you, Daddy!” I yelled and pushed him away. “You scared me to death!” I continued. “Come on, we were supposed to play hide and seek, weren’t we? I was just hiding,” he soothed. “But hiders don’t scare the seekers!” I retorted. “Alright, alright darling, come on, let’s go have lunch,” he said.

He got up and helped me up. His big hand wiped the snow off my body in one sweep. My 10 year old body was so small and fragile. He scooped me up and planted a kiss me on my check. “I love you, darling. Sorry for scaring you. Can you please forgive me?” he said. “Don’t ever leave me alone like that again!” I said childishly in my high-pitched voice. “Alright, I promise,” he replied and kissed me on the forehead this time. Warmth spread from the tips of hair to the tips of my toes. He smiled and hugged me closer to his body. Fire filled my soul. He strapped me firmly with the seatbelt before entering the car from the driver side. I switched on the radio and found the track that he loved the most. The music of the Righteous Brothers’ “Unchained Melody” filled the car. At that moment, I wished so badly that mum was by my side. She loved that song. That is why it became his favourite too. But, she was not there to listen to it. She can’t anymore. For cancer decided to snatch her away from us, only a year ago.

Daddy got into the car and turned on the engine. I was looking at the snowman which we built just this morning. He took a deep breath and turned to me. “Smile for me,” he said. I knew he was thinking of mum and missed her so sorely. I gave him the prettiest smile I had. The smiles that mum always gave us. “That’s my girl,” he smiled too. He looked even more handsome than before. No wonder mum fell for him even at the age of 16. We drove off to Ellie’s Kitchen. We go there almost every day after mum left. Mum used to do all the cooking at home. Right after the parked the car, he rushed out to fulfill his routine. He undoes the seatbelt and scoops me up into his arms. He will then tuck me in comfortably near to his broad chest. After seating me down, the waitress came automatically. “As usual?” she asked. Daddy nodded. “Daddy, daddy, I want lollipop!” I yelled, pointing at a boy near my age outside in the car park. He came out the petrol station holding a big red lollipop. “But, you are going to have lunch,” he protested. “Please! I promise that I will finish all my peas!” I promised eagerly. He didn’t seem convinced. “I promise that I will smile for the rest of the day!” I promised again. He gave me on his sweetest smile and hurried off.

I was beaming and dancing on my seat. The waitress laughed at my silly act. The soda came first. I took a sip and tasted the soda in my mouth. I let it linger for a while. I closed my eyes and took another sip. It felt so good. Suddenly, someone opened the door of the restaurant. I felt so cold instantly. I felt a breeze of wind washing over me like a wave of ocean water. There was something in this breeze. I felt grief, sadness, emptiness and loneliness. I opened my eyes. The seat in front of me was still empty. I looked through the glass window and scanned the car park. Daddy came out of the petrol station waving a big purple lollipop at me. Purple is my favourite colour. He knew me so well. I stood up on the seat and wave frantically at him. I gave him my biggest and prettiest smile. But, that was the last smile I gave him. A few feet away from Daddy stood a middle-aged man. He was pumping gas. He did something I could never forgive him for, even though he is dead.

He picked up his cell phone. In a spilt second, Daddy vanished in a wave of fire. His smile faded as the flames engulfed him. I stood there in disbelief. I could have died myself if not for the kind waitress. She pulled me away from the window as all the glasses shattered into millions of tiny pieces at the impact of the explosion. In the arms of the waitress, I felt another breeze. Again, I felt something in the breeze. But, this time, it was different. I felt death. I went into coma for almost 1 month after the incident. Sometimes, I wished that I never woke up. Then, I would never have to face the world alone. I was sent to an orphanage. There, I heard many other worst stories, stories where parents tortured and abused their children, until the government stepped in to solve the matter. I thank God that memories of my parents were only beautiful ones.

“Got you!” he yelled. Something knocked me down and we rolled onto the floor. I snapped back into my 20 years old self. His chocolate brown eyes met my green ones. Sometimes, I really wished that I never woke up, but not at this moment. At this moment, I cannot imagine how happy I am to be alive, how glad I am to live my life with him and how grateful I am for the warmth he gave me. “Are you thinking about your dad again?” he asked. I gave no reply. I simply closed my eyes and took a deep breath. His cologne was stronger as he came closer. It was lavender. He knew me better. I opened my eyes and stroked his brown hair. I closed my eyes again and took another deep breath. I opened my eyes and took another deep breath again. It smelt so wonderful. He hugged me closer to his chest. It was so warm. But, this warmth was different. It was filled with happiness, undying care and a link of the souls. He rested his head on mine and there we lay in front of the roaring fire.
_____________________________________________________________

I wrote this while I was in class during the Chinese paper on a Tuesday about 5 weeks ago. I was practicing for English essay the next day. When I saw last year's paper prepared by Pn. Mag, I have no idea what to write at all. I ended up writing this open-essay entitle 'Fire'. After finishing only I realised that I kinda like open-essays. Today, (on a Sunday) I am suppose to research for debate and do my accounts homework... gee, am I becoming a workaholic?? Exams just ended!! Actually, no... Exams ended for almost 2 weeks already. It’s time to start working ng siew sanz! But, all of a sudden, I decided to post this up since I haven't been blogging for god-knows-how-long. I guess I am getting mentally unbalanced... so yeah, here it is.

STAY HAPPY!

2009-11-03T23:01:00.001+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!
SO STAY HAPPY!!!
LET NOTHING BRING YOUR DAY DOWN!!!
>gee< i'm too random

2009-09-24T21:28:00.002+08:00

hey!!!! i finally got videos of my public speaking!!! :)

gee, i seriously sound terrible....
and, i didn't know that i paused for that long....

the are some lines in between part 1 and part 2 but it was not recorded... sry!!!
other than that, the ending was not managed to be recorded either...

and here's the impromptu, ah... so much clearer and natural...
of course, because i didn't prepare anything!!!!

anyway, thanks to POH HUA for recording!!! :D

hope you guys like it!!! >.<

JOHN LE SI ANG

2009-09-19T13:57:00.003+08:00

hey john!!! it's little late but i hope you see this anyway. so sorry!!! i have been really busy these days. alright, here's the story of john!!!

sophia, elena, leanzza, marc and i were selected to be in WIRA 2009 and definitely, we need a COACH!!! it is none other than the one and only JOHN LEE SI ANG. the first few words of sophie still ring in my ears:

soph: ok, he's really scary!!! i daren't ask him any questions directly! most of the time, i ask daryl of keefe to ask him for me... and most importantly, remember to copy down whatever he says!
us: ok....

yeah... that's john... and of course, for the first we met him, only sophia did the talking... haha!! john did really try to get us into the discussion and make us laugh but understand the topic at the same time. but, following the words of sophia, we only keep quiet and copied notes.... :P

below are the memorable words and actions john said and did to us during certain tournaments (i hope i got them correct):

WIRA 2009
john: it's ok!!! as long as you guys know that you deserve it, it's ok!!! don't be sad!
(he said this minutes after we lost to CHS)
other than that, while CHS was giving a reply speech, he took a piece of paper and crushed it in front of us! scary right....? abhi was like "oh shit". this is because he was going to give his speech later... even though we lost, he didn't give up on us... he came back

KDU CQ Teo 2009
he said this minutes before the results of the finals were announced.... (we were against Sri KDU)
john: no matter what the decision is... you guys did really well!
after the results were announced, he clapped the hardest and gave us the biggest hug!!! we were only the runner-up... but, he picked us back up and came back

IIUM 2009
he said this after we lost to MRSM Tun Ghafar Baba in Round 4
john: poeple, don't be so sad!!! come one, you have another round!!! cheer up! come on, smile girls
and he said this while we were outside the room waiting for results for the quarterfinals
john: ok, no matter what, we will take lots of pictures after this!!!
and we lost, and he kept to his words, he took the photos with us. he smiled a lot but those smiles were different... nonetheless, he promised to help us in future tournaments and he did!!! he came back

KDUDA 2009
he said this while we were waiting for results the theater hall
john: ok, if we have time later (it means that if we don't get through) we will go for movies and come back for the finals alright?
we didn't go for any movies but we stopped at the semis... after that, he couldn't come back anymore...

he is now in UK studying law. while i am typing this, he should be asleep... no, watching true blood i think... haha
but, this is john:
one who picked us back up no matter how bad we fell, how bad we were bruised or how bad we disappointed him...
one who came back again and again even though we let him down over and over again...
one who tries his very best to cheer us up despite we ought to be sad for the sh*tty performance we gave...
one who believes in DJ, debaters and in us...

john, no words would be enough for what you did for us... only actions can, like how i promised you, we will make you proud one day. we will keep our word like how you did...

A mixture of Elena n I

2009-09-12T00:37:00.005+08:00

e: hello, may i speak to siew sanz pls?
s: yes, speaking. hey el!
e: hey! dah makan? ( she called at about 8 something)
s: dah, dah makan... apa khabar?
e: oh khabar baik! assalamualaikum ya! dah kenyang? ok cut the crap off!
s: oh dah kenyang dah! waai... waalai... waalaikumussalam. sorry, i don't really know how to say it.
e: oh tak pa, tak pa... cakap d*t*n pun boleh! itu berdoa dah! ok stop the crap!
and then, i spent 2 minutes laughing.... gosh, this is what you get when you put el n i together...

I Am Determind Realist

2009-08-31T00:03:00.003+08:00

i came across El Ong's blog and i found this!!! a personality test. in my opinion, it's kinda true!!! :P

Determind Realist

Determined Realists like to bear responsibility and welcome challenges. They are stable, reliable persons. External contacts are very important to them; they mix well and are very active. They are excellent organisers and are very happy when things are done correctly and punctually; they can quickly react impatiently if others are not as conscientious, orderly and dutiful as they are. They prefer structured work which produces visible results quickly to abstract, long-drawn-out processes. Determined Realists have no problem with routine as long as it serves efficiency. However, they very much dislike unexpected and unpredictable occurrences which mess up their careful plans. Once they have committed themselves to a cause they do this with dedication and are willing to make considerable sacrifices for it.

Determined Realists do not avoid conflicts and criticism but face up to them and look for solutions. As they have a keen eye for the errors and shortcomings of others and are often quick at expressing criticism, they sometimes rub people up the wrong way especially when they lose their temper and jump to conclusions. Due to their marked sense of justice they are quickly willing to correct themselves and never take offence if someone speaks to them frankly. You do not have to seek hidden motives with them; you always know where you are. Determined Realists are often found in executive positions as they combine commitment, competence and the ability to assert themselves. In their spare time, they often also accept responsibility in clubs and other institutions.

Traditions rate highly with Determined Realists. They attend every family event and never forget a birthday or wedding anniversary. Family and friends are very important to them. With their open, communicative manner, they find it easy to get to know people and have a large circle of friends and acquaintances. They are never superficial, but reliable and loyal friends who are always there when they are needed. Determined Realists take their relationships very seriously - they dream of finding a partner for life. In a love relationship, they seek above all stability and loyalty and here, too, they are willing to invest a lot in a harmonious togetherness. Determined Realists master crises or difficult phases with composure; they would never think of breaking a promise given. As a partner, one can always rely on their support.

Adjectives which describe your type: extroverted, practical, logical, planning, direct, structured, conscientious, responsible-minded, self-confident, critical, honest, orderly, reliable, controlled, objective, able to concentrate, resolved, purposeful, communicative, with a sense of duty, tradition-conscious, stable, able to deal with conflicts, solution-oriented, relationship-oriented, efficient, impatient, warm-hearted, competition-oriented

PICS!!!!

2009-08-25T20:48:00.003+08:00

well, they aren't quite original 'cause i got them from EV's web page... anyway, here they are!

Ladies and gentleman, allow me to present to you....
the nicest guy ever, EV!!!
and the one and only, fabulous emcee, MARCUS !!!!
yeap, they are superb people!!!

A-MEI!!!! she is a very GOOD singer with a brilliant heart!!!

awesome drummers from Johor!!!

jaclyn victor who sang GEMILANG!!!

Danell Lee who invited others to go up and sing with him!

GUANG LIANG!!! too bad he didn't sing 'Tong Hua'... but anyway, i enjoyed his performance with Francissca Peter!

yeap, i saw all this people... LIVE!!! but not up close lar.... and i enjoyed their singing... LIVE!!! i had lots of fun with Wei Chee and other new friends!!!! yes, LIVE!!!! :p

in conclusion, where else can you get a concert filled with artists even from other countries, save a child at the same time, meet superb people and have fun with friends??? here, 30 HOURS FAMINE CAMP!!! honestly, fasting is not a problem at all.... seriously, come next year!!! i'll be there and i'll see you there!

DA BOMB!

2009-08-23T21:43:00.003+08:00

30 HOURS FAMINE 2009 IS DA BOMB!
i had an awesome time there!!! a million thanks to:
the organising committee for the splendid job,
friends i met last year but still remembered our faces (not our age though...): marcus, EV, eugene, selena
group mates: elizabeth and the others
new friends: yeep hwa, zheng zo, pei yoong and wei chee's other friends; alden, mun yew and my sis's other students
for it is you guys who made it awesome for me! :D
and to those who doubted me, here i am!!! BLOGGING! and most importantly, ALIVE! XD
and definitely i cannot leave out, my sister!!! who brought me there and introduced me to this meaningful event.
and of course and undoubtedly, last but not the least..... YES GIRL, IT'S YOU!!!! for sticking with me for 30 hours and sacrificing your dance class... :( therefore, i would like to ask a favour from all to wish her 'good luck' and motivate to keep her spirits high. (actually, there isn't much point of it.... it's WEI CHEE we are talking about :P)
i would blog about the full story once i've gotten pictures from the others! but when you look at the happy faces, you don't need me to tell you that it was a GREAT event. too bad you guys can't join us... come next year!!!
fill you time!
have fun!
and most definitely, save a child....
SEE YOU NEXT YEAR CAMPERS!!!

P.S. A-Mei is FANTASTIC!!!

Confusions

2009-08-15T21:32:00.003+08:00

i looked up to heaven and asked, "Why?"
why don't we make it through the hard times and succeed?
why don't we prevail through the thorns and see light?
we do we always fail to reach for the best?
yes, we failed again... to see a finalist in the Yonex Sunrise BWF World Championships - 09....
is it lack of focus, training, aggression or pro-activeness/ wrong attitude / over-confident?
or, is it simply because the opponent is too good?
or, is it us? asking too much, expecting things beyond our boundaries and now, sinking down in disappointment...
but i am proud of them. they didn't fade away without a fight. they fought till the very last bit....
and for that, i proud of you boys...
Datuk Lee Chong Wei, you lived up to the name of World Number 1
Mohd Zakry Abdul Latif
Mohd Fairuzizuan Mohd Tazari, it's a shame that they didn't show the match on your court... but hearing the cheers and seeing the scores, i am sure you stretched the Chinese pair to their ends before allowing them to stride into the finals!
Koo Kien Kiet
and you, Tan Boon Heong, you did marvellous today. we all saw your tremendous improvement and we are all so proud!!!!!!! :D
so happy!
but, regardless, there was no success... i will keep my fingers crossed for them and pray for success in the very next championship!!! will you pray with me? please do.... and to the players, just do your thing...

LOVE

2009-08-09T15:07:00.003+08:00

Life can be so hard at times...

Whenever you want something to go your way, it simply goes the other way. Whenever you want something in your life, it simply does not come at all. Whenever you want a particular somebody by your side, no matter how you cry and try, the seat next to you is still empty. After taking a break, looking back at your life and start thinking, you begin to whine and complain that you don't have this and you don't have that. Only then, you start to regret.

Whenever something had been going in your way all the time, something had been in you life since you were born and somebody had been there for you now and always..... you have never realised it, you neither cherished nor appreciated anything at all, you never looked up to heaven and say thank you. You did nothing but take things for granted.

And, that's you, reading this right now. Deep down in my heart, I hoped that I was different, I wished that those I loved weren't like me, I prayed that people I knew are not the same....

But, how different are you from me? How different am I from you? How different is she from him? We are wrong. No matter how different we look, sound or behave. We are the same.

Ungrateful. Blind. Unsatisfied. Always. Now and forever.

Just as we are the same like this. We are the same like that.

We humans, are emotional, too emotional actually. We love unconditionally. Once we are in love, it is simply so hard for us to get out of love. It's love, love, love.

A beautiful thing we humans, give out and want in return. Such a powerful and desirable thing that it can change us from being ungrateful, blind and unsatisfied. One in love will tell you that he or she has the best thing in life, is the happiest person alive and is willing to die to a smile.

That's love. I am feeling it right now as I type this. Can you feel it? Don't worry if you can't. It's somewhere around you. It will come to you. You will know it when it's here for, Love is Love.

Life, Goes On....

2009-07-25T16:23:00.005+08:00

first of all, to those who are aware that of my victory just hours ago, please also be aware that due to certain unavoidable technical errors, i cannot represent M'sia to UK. this issue is of no particular party's fault but it is the natural thing that we, humans, living beings and emotional homo sapiens do, which is making a mistake. i am truly sorry if i had disappointed any of you all. besides, i am also sorry for the trouble i have caused for anyone. here below is my both my prepared and impromptu speech which i think i should post them up for those who missed them. hope you like them. :)

Prepared Speech- We can stop the spread of AIDS, Malaria and other diseases.

"I am a prostitute. I have been selling my body since I was 14, and I have AIDS. I am haunted with the guilt of infecting others with this deadly disease. But I have no choice! I have 3 children at home to feed. I am sorry for the mistakes I've made, but it is either I do this or they die."

A very good morning I bid to the Chairperson, fair and wise judges, L&G.

That was quoted from a 24 year old woman, Minu Das, one of the 2.8 million sex workers in Calcutta, India

What Minu Das said brings me to my topic here today, which is “WE CAN THE SPREAD STOP AIDS, MALARIA AND OTHER DISEASES”.

I wish to be the messenger of hope. I wish to stand here and tell you that there is still hope. I wish to spend a full 5 minutes on talking about the possibility that we can find a cure eradicate AIDS and Malaria. I want to be the first optimist to say all that and mean it, but I CAN'T!

We have to be honest and admit that there is NO CURE for AIDS or Malaria. I say this because AIDS is clearly incurable, we have been working so hard to find a cure in the past 30 years and we have not and we WILL NOT in anytime soon! Malaria is incurable because its main cause, poverty and the poor sanitation in the 3rd world, has not been solved. We cannot, we simply cannot talk about making things better until and unless we acknowledge that there is NO CURE for these diseases. Only then can we take effective steps to counter re-act these problems.

The first cure we want EDUCATION. L&G, the UN Millennium Development Goal states that we want to achieve universal primary education. Education is vital in at least slowing the spread of AIDS, Malaria and other diseases, even if we can't stop them entirely. People need to be aware that these diseases exist, how we could avoid contracting them, and how we should treat them if we do contract them. Focus must be directed towards the promotion of safe sex, usage of condoms, HIV screening for couples before marriage.

The 2nd cure we need is PREVENTION. L&G, I know that we are all here today to talk about stopping these deadly diseases, but we need to change our perception of what “stop” means. Let's face reality, there is no cure! The saying 'Prevention is better than cure' could not be any better. Since there is no cure for AIDS, we have to prevent the spread of it. This means we should focus on teaching the public to avoid promiscuity, free sex and drug addiction, where contaminated needles could carry HIV. As for malaria, we have to PREVENT the situation from worsening. How? By donating just $10, we can give a whole African family a mosquito net, to prevent the spread of Malaria via mosquito bites. We may not be able to solve these problems, but we can stop them from deteriorating. That proactive step alone can save millions of lives.

We, girl guides, can contribute in our own ways. We, can direct our efforts towards running effective sex education programmes. For instance, we can collaborate with Pn. Jamaliah Sulaiman, a HIV positive patient and also, a outreach worker of the PT Foundation who had successfully organised the recent "Never Give Up, Never Forget" campaign. And also, we can raise funds to financially support the poor and destitute. These little things can truly make a big difference.

L&G, we need to take action, and we need to take it now. We've got to stop TALKING about putting an end to AIDS and Malaria. Talk is cheap, and words mean little. Instead, should start DOING something. Let us all, girl guides, young women of the world do our part to save lives. We may still be students, but 'Together, we can change our world!'

I would like to end my speech by taking the words of the late Michael Jackson:

Heal the world,
Make it a better place,
For you, for me,
And the, entire human race.

Today, I AM GOING TO MAKE A CHANGE. The real question is, will you?

Thank you.

Impromptu Speech- Love

Good morning once again. L&G, now, before I start on my speech, I must tell you that I am looking at the 3 greatest love of my life now. My first love, that is my mother who is sitting right there in her olive-coloured shirt. My second love, that is my friends sitting right there in those two rows. My third love is the world, that is you, each and every one of you in this room.

Now, why? Why do I love these people so much? Let me tell you, in every single labor room in the hospital, even when the pain is so great, even the pain is so great that my father’s endless support cannot nullify, my mother only had one wish. That is for me to be healthy. For me to be someone who can give something to the world out there. And, I thank you for that mum. I love you.

My second love is for my friends sitting right there. Poh Hua, Wei Chee, Sophia, Jia Yun, Kah Mun and Samantha. For all the time and other things you had sacrificed for me to sit here and support me. For all your endless support gave me confidence to stand here and speak to all of you. And I would like to take this opportunity to thank you all for that. I love you.

My third love is for you. My love for you is no different from the love of Mother Teresa. For her love and sacrifice for the people in Calcutta, India saved so many lives. Or the love of Nelson Mandela for his people. Even though he had been jailed for over 60 years, he still fought for equality for the blacks. And, I quote the Christian Bible “For God so loved the world, He gave His one and only son”.

The 3 greatest love of your life is right in front of your eyes now. Start loving. I love you.
________
however, there are certain things that i need to add. a million thanks to:
the rest of my family members, for your love made me who i am.
keefe, for all your hard work made me a champion.
john, for helping me a great deal to make it through this.
sophia, for giving comments and pointers all the time.
pn tan lee yin, for listening to me and giving me constructive criticisms.
other friends, for simply being beside me when i need you and the "Good Luck!" wishes.
miss joyce ong(head of organising committee), for supporting me throughout this competition.
pandu puteri teachers, for sending me to this competition even though i am not eligible for it.
and the rest of the world.
I LOVE YOU! :D

Gratitude

2009-07-19T11:58:00.002+08:00

Hi!
yeap...my blog have been quite dead.... but, here i am, blogging again! but, this will be short. all of a sudden, i feel sentimental and wanted to just tell everyone that i truly appreciate your presence in my life. you made a difference(a positive one) and i hoped that i did the same to you! :) special thanks to:
my family: mum, dad, big sis, sis n bro!
my friends: primary school friends, close friends, prefects, debaters, interacters and the list goes on...
and, last but not least, people whom i have neglected, left out or hurt throughout this 16 years. i am truly sorry for the mistakes i have made and please forgive me. to those who had been into my life, thanks once more! :P

no! i'm not posting this because i'm dying soon, migrating or whatever. i simple felt the need to be grateful...

SO MUCH JOY,SO MUCH FUN, SO SMILE!

2009-06-14T11:30:00.006+08:00

"speak to the hand", wen jun says...

sam and i!

ken vyn with his cards...

khai!

ho poh poh!

trina!

wei chee!

shern and audrey with adrian at the back :P

li t'ng and chris!

group pics!

one big happy family!

friends forever!

we were seriously crazy yesterday night! we played hide and seek (yeah, i know what's in your mind now... i asked the same question: how old are we?) but, it was fun!
then, we played mafia! omg, we've got tricked so many times!
after that, we had a 'creaming' session! in other words, i was wiping cream onto other people's faces.. :P
at the end, I GOT DUNKED! actually, we started pushing everyone into the water, without any clothes to change.... :P wen jun went home early and missed all the fun! poor ken vyn was drying his clothes at the pool side. even funnier, adrian voluntarily jumped in to avoid being pushed in.
i hoped that khai's and jean's mum didn't scold them... :P
luckily sam went home early... p.s. her white shirt was soaked....
and tri went home with my old and childish towel...
poh, the van seat is still wet!
as for li t'ng, i have no idea how many times she jumped into the pool...
wei chee, you will get it soon (she didn't go into the water because she has perfomance today. so, she has tan all over her body. if she goes in, she seriously will contaminate the pool)
shern went in with her nice, classy clothes! but, she didn't mind...
to chris: i hope you had fun! (sry 'bout the phone)
and of course, the star of the night.....
AUDREY!
without her, we couldn't have the party.... thank you audrey!
i would also like to thank the following people, for without them, there won't be last night!
my mum, for the wonderful food,
my sisters, for all the help,
my sister's friends, for coming, the presents and also helping me dunking people!
audrey's family, for spending time with us and all the help for booking the place,
elena wong, who can't make it but still came by to drop the presents,
all my friends who came,
and also, friends who had the heart to message me with wishes even though they couldn't make it (keefe and elena ong)
my only regrets were:
so sorry about your handphone chris!
no other debaters came.... (shame on you! :P just kidding!)
and my primary school mates: van, suet, shook and soo... :(
anyway, we all had fun! that's the most important thing!

A New Way, A New Life

2009-06-04T23:32:00.003+08:00

i do not admire those with riches,
neither do i admire those with beauty,
nor, those with power,
not even those with fame.
but, i admire those with health,
i adore those with love,
i respect those with friends,
i envy those with happiness.

most of all, i admire you.
i do not admire bill gates who is rich,
neither britney spears who is beautiful,
nor, barrack obama who is powerful,
not even any famous celebrity.
but, you
you are healthy,
you are loved,
you have friends,
you have happiness.

i admire you,
who do you admire?

FLABBERGASTED

2009-04-16T20:01:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY
SHE IS AMAZING!!!
SUSAN BOLYE!!!!
MUST WATCH!!!

What Will You Remember From High School?

2009-04-04T19:03:00.008+08:00

quote "this is the thing that you will from high school. not your straight A's. not your 1st position in class. it's this." unquote
-pn. mag-
now, i truly understand the meaning of those words.
nothing will mean more that what i've got from this experience.
the knowledge
the skills
but the most important thing is, the bond

elena:
the bubbly, cheerful girls who makes me go *WHOA* all the time. i knew her since form 1 and we have been close ever since. but now, i can proudly say that our hearts connect. whenever i am down, her shoulder is always there for me to cry on, her arms are always there to support me and she, herself, will always be there to keep me together. i know that i have hurt her so many times in the same way... dear, you have my soul to repay that debt.

sophia:
the jovial, beautiful lady who makes my heart skips a beat every time i lay my eyes on her. (NO, I'M NOT BEING A LESBIAN! this is pure irritation for sophie :P ) i knew her since form 1 but we were in a blood feud in form 2. now, i can cheerfully say that we love each other more than we ever did in our lives. whenever my brain is jammed up, i don't have to say anything at all and she will clear up the clog instantaneously. i know that i have hurt her so badly once before.... dear, you my have my heart to repay that debt.

john:
the scary Einstein who turned us, NOOBS, into something else. now, we can proudly call ourselves, DEBATERS. i knew him personally 10 ten days before the first round of WIRA debate. now, i can truly say that i respect him. when we were barely anything, he made us into something. when we fall, he picked us up. when we failed, he succeeded. a coach, a friend, a great debater! i salute to you john!

keefe:
the cute, witty young man who sings the birds off the trees. i knew him since form 3 where he became my division head in the prefectorial board (how i wish to get back into Ponteng & Kelewatan) only now, i can truly say that i know Keefe Chan Jun Hwang, after so much 'ber-bonding' in KDU. when things aren't good, he gives you a pat on the shoulder. when things seem gloomy, he smiles. when things seem to fall apart, he holds them together. keefe, you are the best!

leannza:
the terrifyingly frank but sweet young woman who makes me think twice before saying something. (in a good way) i knew her since form 3 through choral speaking but i truly knew her only through debate. a wonderful superwoman who writes mind-blasting poems, stories and speeches. in the future, i am convinced that it will be books.

abhilaash:
the charming, sweet young boy who made me realise that enemies can be great friends. i knew him since form 1 but we thought that we will be lifelong enemies in form 2. it was through debate that now, we care for each other as teammates. i thank you abhi! for you were one of the few who held me together when i was about to fall apart in the kdu finals. go abhi!

marc:
the intelligent, kind guy who made me realise how it is to be a much better person. i knew him since form 2 but i have never liked him much. it was only through debate that i knew the real marc. and he is a LOVELY AND SWEET guy. he can be so caring and kind! i know that i have hurt him so many times in so many ways. i sorry marc!

SMK Damansara Jaya won 2nd in KDU Debate. this is thing that i will remember from high school.
now and forever.

So Close... Yet So Far

2009-03-24T18:04:00.007+08:00

to john, sophia, elena, leannza and abhilaash:
endless thanks
deep down in my heart, i enjoyed the times we spent together
and, i will sorely miss, treasure and remember those times..
here is a sneak peak of what we talked about during discussions:

Abhi: guys, you know what... our team is really mixed... we have a malay(Sophia), an indian(Abhi himself), a chinese(leannza. he forgotten about elena because she was in CF camp)
Siew: 2 chinese(i corrected him)
Abhi: ok fine, 2 chinese and 1 don't-know-what (siew : me)
Siew: -.-' (speechless)

in conclusion,
i have a chinese name, but i look more like an indian
i have portugese blood, but i sound more like a malay
i have western features, but i act more like an asian
therefore, in the team, i am known as the
CHAPALANG (i think that is how you spell it :P)
bottomline, i don't want those times to end...
i don't want to the competition to end for us....
all we want to is just to move on... is that so hard?
well, miracle happens...
once in a while...
are the tears shed, hard work and sleepless nights enough to convince God to give us a miracle?
only heaven knows...

In The Name of WIRA

2009-03-09T22:58:00.004+08:00

gah.... i just finished writing my speech. most probably, it will be in the my recycle bin later.... again... yes, i really think it will.... hmph, i wonder how many lines remain this time??? 5/7? or maybe less.... haiz
this is seriously torture!~
for others n me!
my mum is obviously not happy with all my time, energy and love being taken up by one single thing.
my family as a whole is not happy with me not around all the time and keep on asking for favours.
my friends are getting worried about keep and without fail, everyday someone will ask me "you ok?" and only god knows that for sure.....
my teachers are already giving us pressure too for homework and exam.
me myself is constantly scolding myself... for what, i'm not even sure at times... haha
bottom line, i'm torturing others and myself.....
for what?
i'm not so sure myself now....

Way To Go....

2009-02-25T18:14:00.001+08:00

SMKDJ is declared "Champion" for Zone level.

Next round is against SMJK Katholik for District Champion title..

Victorious Win For The Team But Dreadful Defeat For Me

2009-02-16T21:47:00.002+08:00

DJ won the Round 2 debate today against DU (we had a bye for Round 1)
our next round is on the 25th (next wed)
undeniably, we won with an unanimous vote
however....
it was dreadful defeat for me
i did so many mistakes! but, i only realised them after i spoke....
i spoke too slow but unclear at the same time,
my rebuttals didn't make sense at some part, and
i didn't answer the POI's correctly....
nevertheless, well done to
sophia
elena
leannza
marc
the preparation is superb

WIRA Debate

2009-02-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

it hasn't started but i'm feeling the stress already...
2 motions...
4 stands...
8 speeches...
9 nines...
and only 5 of us
sophia aliza
elena ong
ng siew sanz
leannza chia
marc choong
1 horror awaits

HAPPY CNY!!!!

2009-01-24T19:22:00.002+08:00

here, i would like to wish everyone ( no matter old/young, male/female, Chinese/Malay/Indian and so on.... okay, practically the whole world )

may you and your loved ones prosper in this ox-picious year... may good fortune fall on you... may heaven bring you health... may your days ahead be filled joy... and most importantly... may that little space, no matter how small, that you have allocated for me in you heart be filled with abundance peace! :)

i think that's about it.....

btw, listen to Taylor Swift's Love Story here! it's FANTASTIQUE!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-18T13:36:00.000+08:00

he didn't make it..... 21-18, 10-21, 21-17.......

DATUK LEE DID IT AGAIN!!!!

2009-01-17T21:20:00.002+08:00

once again, lee chong wei is in the finals.... this time, he is in the korea yonex super series finals with peter gade. hopefully, he will get a back to back title!!!! peter had a walkover against simon santoso of indonesia today... so, i think he won't be as tired as chong wei tomorrow... a slight disadvantage for chong wei..... anyway! i hope he will pull through!!! all my wishes to him!!!! :)

(INFINITY) CONGRATULATIONS!!!

2009-01-12T18:57:00.002+08:00

CONGARTZ to Datuk Lee Chong Wei as the champion of the 2008 Malaysian Open Men Singles!!!!
(he barely made any mistakes again Park Sung-Hwan :P .... 21-14, 21-13)

A MILLION CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

2009-01-10T16:33:00.001+08:00

many many congratz to Datuk Lee Chong Wei as he managed to seal a place in the finals of Malaysian Open with Korea's Park Sung-Hwan.

1st day of school

2009-01-05T18:49:00.005+08:00

well, my first day of school, no..... THE first day of school, since it's everyone's first day..... ummm, well, it was pretty shocking. yes, it was..... here, let me list them to you....

1) i'm in 4 belian, which most probably to continue in form 5 too, which makes it 5 belian. the history of my previous class is:
1balau
2belian
3balau
4belian
n most probably, 5 belian...
no, i do not hate my class... there are people which i wanted to be with and they are here! well, there are also people which i NEVER expected to be with..... so, that was shocking.....

2) my class and physics teacher is a very young lady by the name of Miss Winnie... did i just hear you say "what?" when you read this? yea, that was my first reaction... she is SUPER nice... no doubt... but, her english is like what el o said, half past six. as for her teaching skills, i'm praying to god and most probably, i will be continuing my physics tuition...... i was hoping for some one i like....

3) i checked my timetable and found out who was going to teach us which subject. here it is:
bm: pn norita (horror... STRICT STRICT STRICT but good....)
eng: en khairul (which means no english for the rest of the year...)
maths: pn. goh (thank god, a decent teacher)
add maths: pn sow (i have no idea who she is)
physics : miss winnie (like i have said)
chemistry: pn norfaizah (she's new but i saw her. i don't know how she is but i'm praying for the best since i have so mush shocks already...)
biology: pn lim s k (she came from afternoon session and she taught me in form 1. she's quite ok but VERY strict)
history: pn cecilia!!!!!!! ( a VERY nice lady... god bless her!
i don't know about pjk, moral and sivics.... and i'm hoping........

yea, i was SHOCKED.

school.... haha or haiz???

2009-01-02T15:21:00.003+08:00

school is here again... should i be happy or sad??? i really don't know.... one part of me says that:

CRAP! CRAP! CRAP! I'M GONNA BE A NERD AGAIN!!!

another part says:

WHEE!!! I GET TO SEE MY DARLINGS (girls only... don't think of the wrong side of the fence)!!!

so, which one is the true fact??? and, which one is the lie people use to console themselves???

hmm......

WHEE!!!!

2008-12-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

I'M SO HAPPY!!! YOU'RE SO HAPPY!!! WE'RE SO HAPPY!!! (sing it in that tune if you know it) :P
WHEE!!!!
happiness to everyone!!!
to those who've got what you want, be happy!!!!
to those who did not get what you want, be happy too!!!! because..... you did your best!!! if you did not do your best, don't feel sad either... because you have another chance in SPM!!! ok.... taking SPM isn't a very happy thing.... nevermind, be happy because you are alive! and, god gave you a chance to take PMR!!! even though, you did not use the chance fully! be happy because god did not punish you for it and you are still alive!!! (p.s. someone in the world dies with each passing second)
so be happy ok!!!!

PMR results out of 30th

2008-12-25T18:05:00.001+08:00

according to the Star newspaper:

Thursday December 25, 2008
PMR results out on Tuesday

PETALING JAYA: The Penilaian Menengah Rendah (PMR) results will be released
next Tuesday. .

Education director-general Datuk Alimuddin Mohd Dom will give the analysis
of the results in Putrajaya at 9am on the same day.

Students can collect their results at their respective schools from 10am.

A total of 472,060 students sat for the PMR this year from Oct 13 to 17 at
3,458 examination centres nationwide.

i actually didn't know how to respond. scared? nervous? happy? glad? sad? i seriously don't know. i'm feeling everything!!!

crap.... i think i'm going crazy again.

but i think the most dominant feeling is scared. i seriously hope to get straight A's. :/

MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!!

2008-12-21T20:03:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!! MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!! to those of you who watched the Super Series Master Finals, you guys will know what i'm talking about!!!

malaysia shuttlers, you all ROCK!!! congrats to men singles champion Lee Chong Wei,

nope sorry, Datuk Lee Chong Wei, men doubles champion Koo Kien Kiet and Tan Boon Heong

and last but not the least, women doubles champion Chin Eei Hui and Wong Pei Ty!!!

they all won in straight sets and more importantly, THEY WON IN STYLE!!! malaysia entered three finals and they won ALL!!! too bad wong mew choo didn't make it or it will be better.

nevertheless, they were GREAT!!! keep it up!!! you guys will always be supported!!! :)

OVERWHELMING LIFELESSNESS!!!

2008-12-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

yea.. i'm feeling VERY lifeless... in other words, i'm suffering from depression... mild or serious, i have no idea... it's a pretty normal thing for me... i go through it every year end. when i realise that i have no more books to read, going back to school soon and i have to start studying again.....

I FEEL LIKE JUMPING DOWN THE BUILDING!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!! haiz......

it's just so sad that i have to part with my happy moments and unsure whether the future is happy or not :/......

LIFE IS DEPRESSING!!!!

yea, i know that the heading of my blog is "LOVE YOUR LIFE".... but i made the blog when i was happy, now i'm not feeling too happy. that's why.... haiz..... and... it's much easier said than done...

anyway, BRISINGR WAS GOOD!

ERAGON GOT A SWORD!!!!

but, oromis and glaedr died... a poison dart in the raisin tart.... like what angela the witch said.. haiz................

and that worsens my depression... haiz............

life can be so much more than miserable at times... and, i'm too addicted to books!!!! without them, now i feel so.... umm.... er.... erm......... uneasy. it's like.... when i ask myself, what am i going to do later? read? but no more books already!!!! and i feel the whole world crushing down.... like there's nothing more to look forward to.... haiz........ MISERY IS ME!!!!!

:( i think i'm going to read Brisingr again.... just for something to do and get the book in detail...

OH CRAP!!!! I DIDN'T STUDY TODAY!!!! :p

JJ Lin feat Ah Sa (Charlene Choi)

2008-12-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

this song is super sweet!!!

Xiao Jiu Wo (Little Dimples)

林俊傑 JJ Lin JunJie:
我還在尋找一個依靠和一個擁抱
Wo hai zai xun zhao Yi ge yi kao He yi ge yong bao
I am also seeking for a dependence and a hug

誰替我祈禱替我煩惱為我生氣為我鬧
Shei ti wo qi dao Ti wo fan nao Wei wo sheng qi wei wo nao
Who for me prayed that is angry for my worry for me for me is noisy

Verse:
蔡卓妍 Charlene Choi CheukYin:
幸福開始有預兆緣份讓我們慢慢緊靠
Xing fu kai shi you yu zhao Yuan fen rang wo men man man jin kao
Happiness starts to have the omen fate to let us abut slowly

然後孤單被吞沒了無聊變得有話聊有變化了
Ran hou gu dan bei tun mo le Wu liao bian de you hua liao You bian hua liao
Then has been embezzled becomes bored lonelily has the words to chat has changes

Chorus 1:
Together:
小酒窩長睫毛是你最美的記號
Xiao jiu wo chang jie mao shi ni zui mei de ji hao
The small dimple long eyelash is you most beautiful symbol

蔡卓妍 Charlene Choi CheukYin:
我每天睡不著想念你的微笑
Wo mei tian shui bu zhao xiang nian ni de wei xiao
I cannot fall asleep every day think of your smile

你不知道你對我多麼重要
Ni bu zhi dao ni dui wo duo me zhong yao
You did not know that you are important to me

林俊傑 JJ Lin JunJie:
(你不知道多麼重要)
(Ni bu zhi dao Duo me zhong yao)
You do not know how importantly

蔡卓妍 Charlene Choi CheukYin:
有了你生命完整的剛好
You le ni sheng ming wan zheng de gang hao
Had your life completely just

Chorus 2:
Together:
小酒窩長睫毛迷人的無可救藥
Xiao jiu wo chang jie mao mi ren de wu ke jiu yao
Small dimple long eyelash enchanting incurable

林俊傑 JJ Lin JunJie:
我放慢了步調感覺像是喝醉了
Wo fang man le bu diao gan jue xiang shi he zui liao
I slowed down the step to feel that got drunk likely

Together:
終於找到心有靈犀的美好
Zhong yu zhao dao xin you ling xi de mei hao
Found the heart to have cleverness happiness finally

一輩子暖暖的好我永遠愛你到老
Yi bei zi nuan nuan de hao Wo yong yuan ai ni dao lao
Warm is for a lifetime good I forever to love you to old

Repeat
Verse
Chorus 1
Chorus 2
Chorus 2

ZOOM!!!

2008-12-07T14:30:00.001+08:00

yea.... *ZOOM!!!*.....
that's what i'm feeling right now... my hols are passing like a jet plane!!! *sobs* it's always like this.... happy times pass faster than ever! besides that, i find myself much busier this hols compared to the previous ones...
mainly because
1) i'm reading too much (twilight saga and brisingr!!!)
2) diagnosed with post-PMR syndrome (which is a disorder... cause: sudden and large amount of freedom and carefree-ness.... symptoms: going crazy but resume normal when school starts and most importantly, feeling that the days are passing as if one day consist of 1 hour only instead on 24 hours!!! )
3) doing something which I find is really STUPID, IDIOTIC, IRRATIONAL, TIME-CONSUMING and many more.... BUT.... i'm still doing it.... haiz.... it's always like this.... when i've started with something i like no matter it's suicide or what, i 'll finish it.... pathetic me.... i've told some ppl about i'm doing now (the fruits... :P, if you guys know what i'm talking about... ok, one more hint. ONE of the fruit is normally yelllow. the other is green when unripe and orange-red when riped) despite the thing i'm doing now is STUPID, IDIOTIC, IRRATIONAL, TIME-CONSUMING, they asked me to continue... haiz... conclusion, i will finish what i started.
that's why my hols are passing in supersonic speed!!!
OH!!! yea... there's a another reason....
i've started on form 4 sejarah, bukit kepong, maths, add maths and a little of chemistry..... yes, i can feel the "gasps of horror" already and things like "siew is beyond crazy... i'm going to send to tanjung rambutan tomorrow"
BUT!!!! i bet there are other crazy or should i say "kia-su" people like me who had started too.... for example, ermmm, let's see .... marc choong? yes, i can see the nods too and things like "i'm going to kill myself if marc havent started studyin...." and i'm sure, marc himself will agree with me... right marc?
worse of all, i should be studying more since it's already december......
haizzzz...... i don't want to go into form 4 so fast.... i can sense that i'm not going to like the year.... :( how i wish i can take PMR again... yes, again, i can see the "gasps of horror" and things like "NO!!! RESTRAIN SIEW NOW OR SHE WILL START KILLING PEOPLE!!!" actually, i want to take PMR again mostly because i want to enjoy another 2 months of holidays.... like now....
thinking of PMR, it reminds me that the results are coming out soon!!! what if i don't get straight A's???

HORROR!!!!!

TWLIGHT!!!

2008-12-01T11:40:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY WATCHED TWILIGHT!!!
YAY!
WHOA!
WOO
WHEE!
YEAH!
OMG!!!!!!
*hah....*
after a long long long wait, finally....
I FEEL HAPPY!!! :)
although the plot did change a bit here and there, i guess i'm satisfied with it...
my mum was saying that it's a little dry and she expected more action (she didn't read the book). i thought that they will add in more action to make the movie more interesting too. seems that they didn't.... they didn't really stick to the book too... in the book, bella's runaway from alice and jasper was more complicated. i think the movie will be more interesting if that part was longer... i wonder why they didn't lengthened that part??? :/
nevertheless, it's a good movie. i wouldn't say that it is one of the best that i've seen but certainly not a bad one. for me, i think it worth's 80% (maybe i'm a lil biased :P). anyway, watch the movie and jugde it yourself!
:)

Wu Jian Hui - Sui Ran Wo Yuan Yi (Although I'm Willing)

2008-11-29T20:32:00.000+08:00

to those who has a taste in good songs(or think you do), i recommend you this....

Sui Ran Wo Yuan Yi (Although I'm Willing)

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
Qing rang wo kao jin ni jing jing dui ni shuo
Please let me go to you and softly talk to you.
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
Bie rang wo mei ge ye wei ni shou zhe mo
Don’t let me be tormented every night because of you.
是多么不容易才默默放手
Shi duo me bu rong yi cai mo mo fang shou
It’s so hard to silently let go!
为了我就当作这次为了我
Wei le wo jiu dang zuo zhe ci wei le wo
Just this time, do this for me.
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
Bie rang wo yin wei ni bei hui yi
Don’t let me be tormented by the memories because of you.
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
Er kong qi ning jie le wo men de lian kong
The atmosphere freezes our faces.*
我别无选择
Wo bie wu xuan ze
I have no other choice,
就算我们之间有什么问题
Jiu suan wo men zhi jian you shen me wen ti
Since we have so many problems between us.
依然想念着你
Yi ran xiang nian zhe ni
I’m still longing for you,
虽然被放弃
Sui ran bei fang qi
Even though we’ve given up.
虽然我愿意
Sui ran wo yuan yi
Despite it all, I’m still willing.
就算我们之间有什么难题
Jiu suan wo men zhi jian you shen me nan ti
Even though there are such problems between us,
黑夜我还想着你
Hei ye wo hai xiang zhe ni
In the dark nights, I’m still thinking of you.
心碎人孤寂
Xin sui ren gu ji
Heart-broken people are lonely.
虽然我愿意(心还想着你)
Sui ran wo yuan yi (Xin hai xiang zhe ni)
Despite it all, I’m willing. (My heart is still thinking of you.)
再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
Zai rang wo kao jin ni jing jing dui ni shuo
Again, let me come to you and talk softly to you.
当我说我要你从此好好过
Dang wo shuo wo yao ni cong ci hao hao guo
Then, I will say I will want you more and more as time goes by.
是真的否则我怎么肯放手
Shi zhen de fou ze wo zen me ken fang shou
Whether it comes to that or not, I am willing to let go.
为了我就当作这次为了我
Wei le wo jiu dang zuo zhe ci wei le wo
Just this time, do this for me.
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
Ci gei wo ni xian zai xing fu de xiao rong
Give me your happy smile.
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
Bie rang hen dong jie le wo men de lian kong
Don’t let hatred freeze our faces.
请你做选择
Qing ni zuo xuan ze
Please make your decision.

you guys can listen to it here and now. enjoy.... ( the lyrics are very sad and sweet too)

{to jacq n others hu had difficulty reading de previous post, sry bout it... accidentally clicked on webdings n cant seem to change it back... as for de twilight lovers reading tis... im watching it tmrw!!!! whee!!! :P}

impatience knocking on the door

2008-11-25T20:48:00.000+08:00

I CANT WAIT FOR TWILIGHT!!!! OMG(X)!!!!
impatience is literally eatin me.... >.<
GAH!!!!!
ARGH!!!!
*BANG*!!!! (hehe, sry i cant think of any other sound effects :P)
y cant they synchronise it wif u.s. ? then i would hv watched it di.... they hv to release it only tis thurs...
hmph.......
i wanna watch.....................................................................

:(

Diarrhea Sucks........ a lot >.<

2008-11-17T21:33:00.000+08:00

for de past 60 hrs, i actually went to de toilet for 12 times. n trust me, each time i went in, i felt like im neva goin to c de sunlight again. fortunately enuf, I SURVIVED!!! de followin r details:

symptoms : frequent and excessive discharging of the bowels producing thin watery feces (it' de definition of diarrhea)

cause : unknown. but according to my mum, it shud b de chilies fault...(i've been eatin too much
chili lately. possibly every meal time....)

effects : 1. visits to de toilet as much as 12 times
2. mild but continuous stomachaches
3. PAIN!!!!

howeva, i guess im ok since i can still go on9 yesterday..... n today too. but, seriously guys, dun take chili durin meal EVERY meal time! or u'll suffer! like me....

ouch!

The Twilight Saga

2008-11-10T20:54:00.000+08:00

yea, i finished the twilight saga di! AGAIN..... but i wanna read it again! too bad i lent my book to el ong. but it's ok! im lookin forward to de movie! honestly, i like de effects n it looks kinda cool!

BUT....

i can c tat there r changes in de plot... n i DOUBT tat i ll like de changes.... it's always like tis, whenever a book is published n a movie is made based on it, de plot will b slightly different. although de main parts will b there, but it's wont b tat good if other details rn't de same.... y? y must they change de plot? possibly to make de movie a lil more exciting... but not original to me anymore... haizzz.....

aniwei guys, it's seriously a must watch movie! i noe certain pics from de movie rn't really real... but dun judge de movie by its pics!! i seriously think tat it's gonna b a good movie! (on second thought, dun trust me...haha)

i'll b watchin it though! 27th november..... although i wan to watch de movie real soon, but i dun wan time to past so fast...... >.< (dilemma)

My Last Day....

2008-11-07T21:20:00.000+08:00

despite de title said "My Last Day"..... i'm still alive kay? to post tis entry.... definitely, i was not talkin bout de last day of my life... it's actually my form 3 life... it's seems like just yesterday tat i got splashed on my birthday for de very first time.... which was 20.06.2006... it's simply too memorable to me... probably, one of de things tat i wont forget from de rest of life... N.......on the way, pn. betty's car got wet... haha... :P now, even she left di....haiz... time seriously fly too fast for me... im only startin to grasp it!!! :/ i think im gonna miss my teenage life A LOT!!!

aniwei, i wasnt goin to blog today... i was actually plannin on replyin de msgs in de chatbox only... UNTILLLL, i saw wei chee's msg : update! . Nnnnnn, i recall askin suet to post de pics so i can get them from her blog n post it here. then, wei chee was like "u will meh?" despite de fact tat my latest post was dated 31st n hers was 29th... tsk tsk... aniwei, here i am bloggin!

i think i shud keep it short n sweet... nope, wrong word, short n nice sounds better.... i actually wanted to post all de pics i got from suet's blog... on second thought or mayb second look, i found out tat i was only lookin into de camera for ONLY ONE photo. although there were four of them in total...

no... on third reconsideration, i ll post all of them... haiz.... ok, i guess i shud stop here... bcoz im gonna continue ECLIPSE!!! haha :)

* FLABBERGASTED*

2008-10-31T22:25:00.000+08:00

IM SO HAPPY! IM THRILLED! IM "SO HIGH"! (ppl dun think sick....wait... mayb it's me....haha....)

aniwei, back to de point.... I FINISHED BREAKING DAWN!!!! (which is de fourth book of de twilight saga) and it's BREATHTAKING!

to me, it's sorta like harry potter, eragon and de inheritance, sum of Christopher Pike's books n mayb sum of R.L. Stine's too.... thrillin, suspense-filled, fun, twisted n most importantly .....
BREATHTAKING!
jus tat these have a lil more romance....

n to those hu disliked de story / found it boring / thinks tat it's ridiculous / or wateva u may think... *ahem ahem* (i supp sum of u guys noe hu im talkin bout...) u all might wanna read breaking dawn.... i think it will change ur perspective... coz in there is where de puzzles fall into pieces....

to thoes hu find de romance unbearable.... jus read breaking dawn pls? i think it ll b worth it....

i shud b goin thru them again once more... jus to deepen de memory of it in my mind.... but my mum isnt too happy bout it though... i guess i was too obsessed wif de story... neglecting other things on de way.... BUT! i wont b doin tat while i reread de books! i ll b goin on a slower pace...

b4 i go, remember ppl! read the books! u wont regret!!!! (i hope....haha....)

THE TWILIGHT SAGA IS ....... (THERE'S NO EXISTING WORD TAT CAN DESCRIBE IT.... )
jus like my other favourites : harry potter, eragon n de inheritance, etc.

:)

NEW MOON IS EVEN BETTER!!!!

2008-10-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

STEPHENIE MEYER IS AMAZING!!!!

honestly, i'm totally indulged into new moon! too good to resist! but, im goin at a slower pace to keep de momentum.... as in not to just run thru like how i did in twilight.... twilight is a bit blur in my head now... but! de storyline is still fresh!

howeva, i shud b readin them again after i finish eclipse.... not so soon IF i can get my hand on breaking dawn... any kind souls willing to borrow me? i promise i ll finish it within 24 hours! :)

or maybe.... my bday was jus 4 months ago! any belated presents? *hint hint* haha.... jus kiddin....

no matter wut! i hv to thank shook wai, suet ying, vanessa, soo hui, adrian n wen jun for all three books! im sure they cost a bit too much for me... or mayb a lot more than wut im worth for... nevertheless, u guys hv my luv til de end of time! haha.....

n also, i hv to thank nicole (if u eva read this) for "simply irresistible"! i shud b readin it in a week!

goin back to new moon! it's terrific but sad... edward left bella.... sry if i spoiled tis 4 ani1... but, i really hv to say this! edward is HORRIBLE to do tat! ok, mayb horrible is too strong... in other words, he's idiotically stupid and terribly mean! he's worried for bella's safety but he neva think of wut will bella do without him?!!? after all they've been thru... bella's feelings shud b his first priority! but, seems tat it's her safety tat's more important... haizzzzz

aniwei, edward's voice is appearing in bella's head... well, tat's wut bella thinks... she thinks tat it's hallucinations.... but i dun supp it is... i think edward IS communicating to bella. telepathy it seems.... aniwei, i cant b sure... i shud move on n c!

NEW MOON! WAIT 4 ME!!!

TWILIGHT IS TOO GOOD!

2008-10-18T21:46:00.000+08:00

OMG! I FINISHED TWILIGHT! IN LIKE WUT, 20 HOURS? (i sorta realised tat it's de 2nd time im startin wif "OMG!"... hehe)

aniwei, gettin back to twilight.... OMG! I CANT BELIEVE IT!

firstly, i cant believe tat i finished it so fast... much more faster than Deathly Hallows (harry potter book7)

secondly, i cant believe tat im practically in luv in de story... it's too captivating!

thirdly, i cant believe tat im seduced, no sry, wrong word... CHARMED by edward... he honestly seem so godlike....

omg, how i wish i could meet sum1 like edward.... i supp wishin tat im in bella's position was a lil too much.... btw, they din manage to go to Seattle.... they did sumthing else better.... wanna noe? read it urself.... haha...

but, i hv to say... i dun quite tis wallpaper of de movie... they are look a lil too fake... not godlike as described in de book... edward espeacially looked a bit overly exaggerated....

but, he absolutely look much better in tis pic below.... probably hot.... haha

howeva, despite de disturbin poster, im still gonna watch de movie!

btw, i read de sneak peak of de first chapter of new moon! omg, it's so exciting! bella got a paper cut n she fell down on pieces of glass, which make more wounds n worst of all BLOOD.... to make matters worse, jasper sorta lost control of himself n wanted to attack bella.... omg, i cant think wut will happen....

but, bella WILL survive... i think.... bcoz i dun think de main character ll die in de first chapter of de second book when there are another 2 books ahead.... haha

worst of all, im CRAVING to read it.... but i dun wan it to end so fast.... im seriously in a dilemma.... my mum is tellin me to read it tmrw... but can i resist de "thirst" for it?

wow, i guess de word is a lil too strong... nevertheless, new moon, here i come! today or tmrw! haha....

I'M BACK!!!!

2008-10-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

OMG! I CANT BELIEVE IT! IM BLOGGIN AGAIN!!!!

startin from 9.31 am tis morning, i couldnt stop smillin like a stupid idiot.........

but i cant help it! i so darn happy! im so free!!!!

no more studyin for months!

badminton evryday!

drama evryday!

movies evryday!

n my TWILIGHT!!!! muahahahahhaha!!!! im edi at chapter 5 n de title is BLOOD TYPE. hmm.... i wonder wut's gonna happen when Bella n Edward are at Seattle... omg i cant wait to continue! but i promised wern lin tat i ll blog first. hehe.

n now, im gonna get back in touch wif my frens on9! im gonna reply all de msges in de chatbox! im gonna go on9!

but my day wasnt as exciting as audrey's, van's, suet's, jenn's n wenjun's...... they went out.... haizzz...... how i wish i was there......

but nvm ! im gonna continue my twilight!

bella! edward! wait 4 me! here i come! haha.......

Cutting Connection?

2008-09-25T09:48:00.000+08:00

2day is edi de 25th of sept.... approximately 18 days to de thing i dun wanna go thru at all......

PMR!!!!

life moves on.... no matter wut.... unless...... TIME STOPS!!!

but, ll tat happen? possibility, erm let's c...., it's lower than -. which directly translates to .... NEVER? yes, i think so.... being realistic...

i hvnt been goin 2 schl yesterday n today.... excuse, no sry. it's supp to b reason, not excuse.... is...

SICK!!!

honestly im sick.... im hving flu, cough n a lil sore throat now.... i jus ate my favourite Pan Mee! but, i cant really taste it.... i wonder if it's bcoz of de noodles itself is tasteless or my taste buds r affected by de sensory cells in my nose since they r covered wif excessive mucus.....

btw, i jus sneezed blood.... theoretically, i shud b goin 2 c de doctor... but, practically, WHO CARES??? it's jus some blood comin out of my nose n it's normal bcoz there's too much heat in my body..... i think.....

aniwei, gettin back to business, i dun supp i ll b bloggin any time soon, not until after PMR.... i dun think i ll comin on9 either..... intensive studyin.....

so, im really sry to any1 hu wans to contact me..... u can call my hp though! :) pls, dun sms..... i wont reply.... bcoz ..... my hp is out of credit.....

n..... to my dear darlings (kzhin, suet, elena, jacq, adrian etc.), im sry.... i guess i wont b replyin ur msgs in de chatbox.... hey, wait a min... u guys ll b studyin too rite.... haha... so i guess my blog ll b dead 4 approximately 23 days.....

so yea.... sayonara every1!!!! :P

goldless.........

2008-09-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

haizzz our malaysians lost.... omg........ 3rd set was 17-21...... haiz......

LCW LOST AGAIN!!!!

2008-09-21T16:14:00.000+08:00

our biggest hope to win a gold in de japan open, Datuk Lee Chong Wei, failed.... again..... OMG!!!! HOW CAN HE DO TAT??? he was leadin 16-12 in de first game.... but, de score turned out to b 17-21..... omg!!!!!!!!!!! sony dwi kuncoro of indonesia won 5 consecutive points 16-17...... then, LCW got a point! but, sony won 17-21.... OMG!!!!!

in de 2nd game worst still.... 11-21.... wut's wrong wif him today??? mayb it's bcoz he hasnt been trainin for 2 weeks after de olympics.... do u guys noe y? BCOZ HE HAS BEEN ATTENDIN TOO MANY FUNCTIONS FOR HIS DATUK-SHIP!!!!!!!!!! i so feel like screwin sum1... mayb de person hu wanted LCW to attend de functions.....

now, our women doubles Chin Ee Hui - Wong Pei Tty is playin against china's Cheng Shu - Zhao Yunlei.... de malaysians lost de first game 19-21....haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
BUT THEY WON DE 2ND GAME 21-5!!!!!!!!HAHAHA!!!!!!!!! I REALLY (X) HOPE TAT THEY WIN!!!!

it ll b their first title IF they win!!! 2 those hu r readin tis now..... pray hard 4 them!!!!

Dreading The Days Ahead.........

2008-09-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

heylo ppl!

upon request by khai zhin, my super good but unexpectedly "polluted" fren, i bloggin this post out of de blue... "hmm...wut shud i blog about???" i was thinkin.... finally, i decided to blog about how am i dreadin my days.....

honestly, I CANT WAIT FOR PMR!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm hopin all my heart tat it's just 2 weeks away and not 4.... i bet u guys readin tis r like thinkin "OMG!!!! THE PAU HAS GONE CRAZY!!! SHE HAS BEEN STUDYIN TOO MUCH!!!!"

frankly speakin, i supp de reason i wan pmr to come so early IS BECAUSE I STUDIED TOO EARLY!!!!

to b honest, i started studyin rite after de hols.... until now, it has been 3 weeks di..... n im edi running out of steam!!!! im so sick of readin de same thing over n over again........ nevertheless, i still force myself to do it.....

be4 studyin, i ll b findin other things to do to keep from studyin.... while im studyin, i ll thinkin of other things. but, my conscience will be like" NG SIEW SANZ!!! U R GONNA DIE IF U DUN GET STRAIGHT A'S!!!" automatically but unwillinly, i ll continue studyin.... after studyin, i ll b so freakin happy 4 a while! then, i ll b depressed again.... bcoz i ll b doin to de same thing tmrw....

so sien lar!!!!!!!!! doin the same thing over n over again EVERYDAY! jus hving de thought tat i ll continue tis 4 de next few weeks makes me wanna drop dead....

OMG!!!! SUM1 SAVE ME!!!! IF NOT, IM SERIOUSLY GONNA GO CUCKOO!!!!

RYNN'S NEW SONG!!!!

2008-09-09T17:36:00.000+08:00

haizz... seems tat no one is interested in make-up....
aniweizzz, i gotta tell u guys bout tis new song by Rynn Lin Yu Zhong/Lim Yee Chung(in eng). the song title is Gai Jia(Remarried).
it's criously goooooooooooooooooooooooood(x10000000000000000000000000000).
so far i only found one website wif de lyrics... so if ani1 wans... it's here!

GAI JIA

起轿
qi jiao

凤冠霞披却不闪耀
feng guan xia pi que bu shan yao

鞭炮
bian pao

燃烧的喜气沾苦恼
ran shao de xi qi zhan ku nao

唢呐吹不响
suo na chui bu xiang

烙在心上的某一段情调
lao zai xin shang de mou yi duan qing diao

苦笑
ku xiao

爱蒙上盖巾看不到
ai meng shang gai jin kan bu dao

醉掉
zui diao

交杯酒跟谁不重要
jiao bei jiu gen shei bu zhong yao

掀起盖头来
xian qi gai tou lai

亲问新人的脸幻想是你的面貌
qing wen xin ren de lian huan xiang shi ni de mian mao

你的好当嫁妆
ni de hao dang jia zhuang

[把爱当新娘
ba ai dang xin niang

没有人像你让我得意的笑
mei you ren xiang ni rang wo de yi de xiao

爱悄悄
ai qiao qiao

经过寂寞的洗脑
jing guo ji mo de xi nao

改嫁到另一个人怀抱
gai jia dao ling yi ge ren huai bao

心草草
xin cao cao

隐藏回忆的心跳
yin zang hui yi de xin tiao

试着要把你的忘掉
shi zhe yao ba ni de wang diao

爱悄悄
ai qiao qiao

这样改嫁到终老
zhe yang gai jia dao zhong lao

就是想你改也改不了
jiu shi xiang ni gai ye gai bu liao

若被烫焦
ruo bei tang jiao

大红蜡烛两头烧
da hong la zhu liang tou shao

让爱随火灭掉
rang ai sui huo mie diao

童谣：掀起你的盖头来
tong yao ：xian qi ni de gai tou lai

让我来看看你的脸
rang wo lai kan kan ni de lian

呜~~
wu ~~

不是你的脸
bu shi ni de lian

呜~~
wu ~~

不是你的脸
bu shi ni de lian

爱过了门就灭掉
ai guo liao men jiu mie diao

go 2 you tube n look 4 tis:
Yu Zhong @ New Era College Kajang - Gai Jia
or now u can listen to it here! look at the right part of de screen now!

listen!listen!

n if ani1 dares to criticise it in my blog..... BEWARE!(especially guys, if u wan father's day.... haha)

ANYONE WANTS TO LEARN MAKE-UP???

2008-09-03T20:49:00.000+08:00

Hi everybody!!!

As the title has shown, make-up lessons are offered!!! Not by me of course.... But, by my beautiful and ever charming eldest sister, Miss Carmen Ng!

My sister had been giving make-up lessons to many people (who never regretted joining) for the past six years. She used to teach in a talent company. But now, she has decided to offer these lessons to everyone else!

Basically guys, you all know what can make-up do to transform a person. But now, what makes my sister's lessons different is besides looking gorgeous, you get to learn the best type of make-up for your skin; a pretty important skin care regime so that you don't look 40 when u are only 20.

Just to share a thought..... Do you know that unsuitable types of make-up can cause you to have frequent break-outs, pores enlargements and eventually cause your skin to have wrinkles too? It seems that many people who can make-up very well do not know about this fact and are slowly destroying their skin. Therefore, lessons are given to stop more people from killing their skin!

My sister's courses include:

Basic Course (Personal Make-up)
-Make-up theory
-Skin care theory
-Day make-up
-Night make-up
-Eyebrow shaping

Advanced make-up
-Trendy looks
-Colour theory
-Corrective make-up
-Mature make-up
-Photography make-up
-Stage make-up
-Creative make-up

(Pls. note that you are only allow to take Advanced Make-up lessons after attending the Basic lessons)

A brief description of the courses:

price upon enquiry
One to one lesson
3 make-up lessons (3 hours per lesson)
Course duration - 9 hours

To those who are interested, pls. contact my sister at 012-2701656 / 03-78035397. Anyone is welcome to join (siblings, friends, mothers, cousins etc. ). If not, pls. feel free to leave your contact number in the comment box.

Below is a picture to show how pretty make-up can make you look!

(My sis is pretty right? Haha... just kidding... :p)

Thank you!

take-a-break!

2008-09-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

heyzz ppl,
i was studyin khb. i am studyin khb. n i will b studyin khb. haizz....... poor me haha :P ....
i was thinkin tat i shud take a break... tat's y im HERE!! bloggin! but, i shudn't b..... >.<
still... i'm here.... btw, im still worried bout my moral.... tmrw got moral.... but will de teacher b comin? haizz..... depression....
aniwei, to those of u guys hu r half way studyin when u read tis.... honestly, take-a-break! b4, ani1 goes cuckoo! haha... jus kiddin...
remember! LOVE YOUR LIFE!!!!

help.........

2008-08-31T20:06:00.000+08:00

to evry1 hu can help me,
i created a chatbox acc n i hv de codes. but i do not noe where to put it!
(stupid n outdated me.......)
i tried puttin it at de end n top of de template code but it says error....
in de middle, no error.... but also no chatbox found......
i need HELP!!!!!
to any1 hu can help me.... pls leave me a comment....help.....

MERDEKA CELEBRATION!!!

2008-08-31T11:19:00.000+08:00

HI PPL!
many ppl din come on last fri. but, im super glad tat i did. bcoz.....it's one of de best days of de year! no guys.... it's not celebration tat was nice... it was after de celebration!
bcoz we 3 balau dudes, were supp 2 "jaga" de exhibition, but instead we played........ TRUTH OR TRUTH & DARE OR DARE! sounds quite lame rite? but yea, tat's wut we did.... but if u were in it, u ll never regret....
thru tat, i saw chern hsiang running around de hall, swingin his hands n singing "i'm a barbie gal". omg, tat was a lil disturbin... but, it was funny.
then we saw yoong tat n en zhen ballroom dancin. (n it was yoong tat's first time touchin sum1's waist! omg, poor yoong tat. 4 zhen, it seems tat he has been frequently touched by derrick... i wonder....)
too bad i hv no pics, if not.......(hahahahahah)
4 de truth part, i found out khai zhin's most recent crush!
n........sam's most embrassin moment......
end of story, everything was FUN!!!!

to ev n marcus

2008-08-31T11:15:00.000+08:00

hey guys, thx a lot 4 droppin by... i ll drop by at ur blog when i hv time marcus... aniwei, i ll try my best! haha... n also... i always look like 15 lar....n.... tat pic was taken last year. but, i liked it a lot. tat's y i still post it up...
btw ev, if u wanna c us, u can always come to our schl, smk damansara jaya. haha.... if tat's possible...

IM STARTING TO BLOG!!!!!!!

2008-08-30T12:38:00.000+08:00

hey, evry1! im bloggin again!
actually, i used to hv a blog but it is D.E.A.D (Dying Emotionally And Dreadfully). after goin 4 the 30-hrs famine camp, i decided to hv blog. mostly, it's bcoz of EV(a really cool person i meet in the camp) if i recall properly, he mentioned tat i was outdated for not hving a blog. haizz.... mayb i am...
aniwei, just 2 promote 30-hrs famine, i would ask evry1 hu can go to go 4 it. it is really a MUST(X100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000) to go! but, honestly, u ll hv great fun.
frankly speakin, de hunger is nothing compared to de fun u ll hv. there r superb emcees like marcus, rudy, edward and richard. though i hv to say, i din really feel de lemon...sry marcus...(inside joke) besides de point, GO 4 IT!!!!